Heaviness swallow my entire being. My body and soul buried within this dreadful darkness. Not completely dark but a greyish tint that makes everything no sense. Who am I?
I don't know. A memory pops up which unravels to more and more. Time pass without my knowledge. Body moving on it's own goes to the class listens to the lecture and blanks out. The lessons are there, something knew and something I know. Life moves on. On and on. On and on. Then a stop then it goes on and on. On and on. On and-
A book landed on my head and dropped to the floor with a thud taking me out from my stupor.
"Hey dickhead, can't hear me now?" A boy my age, my classmate probably with striking green eyes and dirt blond hair looked at me with a sneer. He threw a book at me it seems.
I look again, observing him, anything to get away from the loop that goes on in my head. He looks at me again but for some reason his face gets angrier. Why? I don't know. How does he even feel such an unwanted emotion with such intensity? I wonder it truly fascinates me.
"Why aren't you saying anything? Did cat got your tongue. Oooh don't tell me are you scared" he sneers and jeers at me. Mocking and being sarcastic nonstop.
My face doesn't twitch at all. No the thing is I can't feel anything. I stare. His remarks sounds ridiculous now. No it was that way the whole time but now I suppose it seems ridiculous to him and his....minions? Hmm no, subordinates.
My head hurts. I grimace. This overwhelming pain. The boy with dirt blonde hair comes closer to me. His mana is strong I can feel it. For some reason today he's angry no....scared?...I don't know but emotions seems to follow me. I analyse and go into a different kind of stupor where screams fill the area, shouts and curses that plagues anybody's soul and where childishness earns nothing but self destructive feels good. Then a sort of coldness that came from feeling everything. He comes closer and the door opened with lectures in a pile. I must say. Those emotions. It's rare. Fascinating.
You've had me there blondy.
Yeah let's go with name. I smile. Ridiculous but knowing that I'm not the one with emotional instability is relieving. Not exactly something to be proud of but oh well it makes things bearable where everything feels nothing and emotions have no meaning whatsoever. Glares seem to be haunting me for no reason. My memory is clear with this altercation and by no reason do I see any reason for the need to have that book to my head. Am in the middle of some misunderstandings? Oh god please no it's hard to stomach ridiculous things anymore. A thunder swept over the academy, tearing my eyes off the board towards the vastness of darkness and scattered life in the desolate and bleak place of a world we live in.
After class, it was the usual. First you go to the training hall and then the auditorium for potions. Apparently I took that and has enough knowledge to get through. Ever felt like a stranger within yourself? At times I feel like a different person. Sometimes a normal student going on about life, sometimes a trapped one and sometimes there's nothing. Foggy. Everything that is seems foggy and shallow. Depths never mattered here because all we see are the surfaces and judge others merely based on our incapability of seeing the world. Glares followed me throughout, so thoroughly that someone who's mastered the art of ignoring or is just naturally capable of it is noticing that. Do I even wanna know what this is? Well it's fun... I sigh then shake my head and go out into the ground. Just want to pass through some time. Little did I know that it was the start of the imminent disaster I was about to face.