It's laughable that I can't even manage to blame myself. I'm a cold robot, utterly unworthy of having such a good wife like you.
So I became increasingly indifferent to you, hoping perhaps you'd realize the mistake and choose to divorce me. But you never did...
And at that time, I was a bastard too, selfish and cold, completely unable to understand or care for your feelings. I only wanted to find my emotions again, so when I met Shao Yingying again, I thought I had grabbed onto another lifeline.
Because she was the only woman I ever liked, I still remember the feeling of liking her, yet I couldn't generate it anymore.
I approached her just to reclaim even a shred of human emotion. I never even considered that doing so might hurt you.
No, I knew it would hurt you, but I felt nothing. I didn't even have a guilty conscience, which made me hate myself even more.
And made me more eager to become a living person again.
