57. "FORGET ABOUT"
She's one thing that I wanna forget about, my memories never fade but I wish those about her would turn blurred from this moment on. I hate that I still see her in my dreams, if I could I would simply shut them down for forever.
I used to think the most of her, I used to think that she was the most beautiful girl on God's green earth but right now I'm opening my eyes wider, this is just a history now and it'll never be anything more.
I've realized that she never cared enough to even stop a bit, she moved on right after me, it was like I never happened, she done had a baby and everybody tried to tell me about loving her, how it wasn't good for me but love is blind, I see that now.
I'm erasing her from my memories, I forbid her from my life ever again, she doesn't a second of my love anymore, she used to be so beautiful to me but now she's one thing that I'd love to forget about.
58. "REHAB"
This is getting dangerous, it's nothing like what it used to be, and now it's like I'm hooked up on this slow doze killer. It's getting toxic, dark and it's draining the fuck out of me, I don't want this to be the death of me, loving her is starting to feel like I'm digging a grave for myself because I keep leading my soul astray, so I'm gonna check myself into a rehab.
It's time that I drain this drug out of my system, it's time that I detach my soul from her and drain this love out of my heart before this shit becomes the death of me.
Real love isn't meant to feel this way, love wasn't meant to kill a person, love is supposed to be an opposite of the bullshit that I been feeling in last six months.. I realize now that being in love alone is a trap of misery.
It's best for me to drain all of our memories out of my head, it's best for me to drain the sex out of my body and this dangerous love out of my mind.