56. "CLOSURE QUESTIONS"
The best I can do is to be honest with myself, even if it's about the stuff that I don't like to admit but the honest truth is I'm still going through the same shit I was going through few months ago. Sometimes it makes me wanna lose my cool because how the fuck am I still going through this shit?
I laugh because I could've sworn that we were meant to be, by the way we met and how everything fell into place, the things she would do for me as her act of love.
Tell me,was it just a teenage love?
Did I mess up something that was meant to be mine or she was just here for a moment?
Are we meant to be in each other's life or our chapter has come to it's end?
Is she doing wrong by leaving me or following God's will?
This ain't a lost and found, I'm still a lost until I'm found, I still daze out in moments, thinking about the good old times, about how good it used to be. The frustrating part is that the desire and the need has faded away but the memories and the feelings fail to fade away.
Tell me, if I had came to my senses earlier, call and tell her how deeply sorry I am for disregarding her emotions, for not being there when she needed me the night before,
Tell her how much I love and need her and how much I'm gonna do better from now on,
Would we still be in love and in a relationship?
I could've sworn that we were meant to be, I guess I was foolish.