The morning entered the room with its bright sunlight. Ever since the winter season has ended in Shanghai, everything seems a little different. The morning also is not really the same one.
I turned slightly towards my right side of the bed, and it made me feel that this bed has such a huge space to sleep, like I can sleep here, then I can turn and sleep there. I am used to my dormitory's bed, so this bed gives me quite a different feeling.
And after doing this much deep research on the bed, I tried to get up from it, but I can't as I got so much tired from yesterday's work — packing, shifting, changing place — that I didn't even get time to rest properly. But now it seems like life itself has given me a break from it, as now I don't need to attend the classes anymore and don't need to go on shoots and don't need to do any kind of work at least for some time. So now I can officially declare that my break period has been started from today onwards. At least I can get a break from my daily hectic life schedule. No matter if it only lasts for some time, at least I have that some time.
Then after enjoying my own thoughts and overthinking, I finally got up from the bed, but not properly. I just got up and sat on it only while rubbing my eyes.
While doing that, I just realized that this room has a kind of fragrance — the fragrance that makes me feel that I am sitting in the middle of a garland and the cool breeze touches my hair and blows it away in the air. But this is really not a garland. Zhao Shiza, come back to your real world. While making myself understand this, I just realized that yes, it's not a garland, it's Yuan's house and I am here now. Oooo, this makes me feel much more worried rather than staying in the garland that I had imagined.
I started biting my nails due to that sudden realization and anxiety.
He is going to come anytime here. I need to change my clothes. What if he looks at me like this? What will he think? I am not even looking like a normal person, as my eyes get a little swollen from my sleep, my face gets a bit flushed after waking up, and my lips and nose also look a bit more bigger and swollen. I can't let him see me like this. I really don't look good enough to face him right now.
I said all these things to myself and then I started searching for my suitcase to freshen up and change myself.
I still didn't get up from the bed, I am still sitting in the middle of it while looking here and there in the room through my eyes to check if my suitcase came here in this room or not, but nothing worked out as I couldn't find it.
It might be still inside the car's storage, I said to myself.
While I was thinking all these things in my mind, the door handle knob moved slightly as it turned, and here he is entering the room. And before looking at him, I covered myself with the blanket completely and got myself wrapped inside it.
I couldn't see him, but I could sense his footsteps which were slowly approaching towards me. My Mr. Heart's heartbeat started beating faster than usual, because what if he sees me like this in the morning? I am not ready to face him like this, I am not at my best.
While these thoughts were continuously going around inside my mind, he came near me and sat in front of me. I could see this through the shadow. And then he slowly started putting down my blanket with his hands.
And at that moment, I started reacting defensively and held the blanket tighter around me and wrapped myself even more tightly so that he couldn't open it. But how could I forget that he is Yuan — Yuan, and he can do anything or everything whatever he wants to do.
Then his hands slowly held the side of the blanket and started pulling it down from my face, and while he was doing that, I tried to hold the grip of the blanket a little tighter.
Then he said, "Silly girl, don't act stubborn early in the morning, let me," he said it.
And I didn't even know how, but suddenly my grip on the blanket loosened slightly, and then this was the time he successfully pulled down the whole blanket from me.
Now there is no wall of blanket around us, as we are sitting face to face in front of each other.
And then my eyes slowly went up, and my eyes saw the most beautiful scenario of my whole life — seeing his face first in the morning, where the brightness of sunlight is reflecting on his face and lighting up around him. The brightness of him with the sun's brightness is really complementing each other.
"Did you sleep well last night?" he asked me.
I nodded my head.
He smiled and said, "Then eat this," he said while offering me the tray that he was holding in his hands.
When my eyes went on the tray, there was hot porridge, warm water, and some chopped fruits on it.
I smiled after seeing this. "Oooo, you are such an ideal boyfriend, isn't it?" I said in a bit teasing tone.
He smiled and said, "Stop teasing me, have this."
I smiled and said, "Mr. Xu Yuan, I need to freshen up myself first, then only I will have this breakfast."
"Oooo yes, I have forgotten it," he said.
"Your all stuffs are inside the wardrobe, you can grab anything from here," he said.
"Wardrobe?" I repeated it again.
"When did you place my stuffs from suitcase to the wardrobe? Did you do it?" I asked him.
He smiled and said, "Yes, of course I did it. Who else could have done this?"
"But Yuan, I am not staying here for months, I mean just for a few days."
"I know. Stay here until your Mr. Heart tells you to stay here. I won't force you for anything," he said.
Then I smiled and said, "Yuan, I know you want me to stay here, but it's not good for you. What if your family or your fans get to know about it? What will they think about us? I know they will definitely think wrong about us, and I can't handle any wrong accusations on us because I can't see the pureness of our relationship getting judged by others like this. I really can't see all this," I said to him.
"I know. That's why I am saying it. I really don't know what future holds for us, but it definitely has you and I in it. Only that thing I know," he said while cupping my face with both of his hands.
Then I smiled and said, "You know what, Yuan? This always feels like a dream, like I always dreamt about. I mean not dream — imagined it — that you and I living together and you taking care of me, and today this is all really happening, and I can't believe it. I mean it feels like when I open my eyes, it will break my dream. Why does it always seem like a dream? And you know what, Yuan? I always say this to myself — Zhao Shiza, just a little more, I want to stay a little more here if this is really a dream which is meant to be broken," I said.
And while saying it, I really got a bit upset.
He noticed that — of course he noticed everything of mine, nothing is hidden from him. In fact, I can't even hide anything, because whenever I try that, he catches me every time.
He smiled and hugged me, and his hug is my safe place, my comfort zone, the most safest place in this whole world for me.
And then he said while patting my head, "If this is really a dream, then tell your dream that you never want to wake up from it," he said.
What he said really made me a bit shocked, because I never expected that Yuan will say such things. I always thought he would say something else to comfort me, but what he said now… it's like he is giving me the assurance that he is with me no matter what.
And also one thing — when he knows that I fear a lot that this might be my dream which will definitely shatter one day, he didn't force me to change, instead he just said the words which I wanted to hear. Maybe he knows that for me this will help. I really don't know anything, but I know this one thing for sure — that I am with him, and he is holding me, and this is the best feeling in this whole world ever that my Mr. Heart always craves for.
Staying in your arms forever and ever till the breath of my life… I hope these arms will wrap me and shower warmth and love for me. I said these things to my Mr. Heart in my mind.
And then I slightly got up by breaking that hug and asked Yuan, "But what's next now?"
I asked him this question because I want to know what our lives hold next for us and what we need to do.
He smiled and said, "I am getting an off from work, at least for one week, pretty sure about it. And that whole one week is ours, and we both will spend the time together in this whole one week like a normal boyfriend and girlfriend, not a celebrity and a university student — oh, correction, Shanghai university student," he said in a bit teasing tone.
"Yuan, you have started just early in the morning. This is my first day of staying at your place. Can't you be a bit gentle on me?" I asked him.
He smiled, "First thing, Miss Zhao — this is not my place, this is our place from now onwards. You can come here whenever you want, even when I am not here. This is a safe zone place for my silly girlfriend," he said while handing over the spare keys of the house to me.
"Yuan…" I said.
"Whatever belongs to me definitely has a right for my girlfriend. So this isn't a big thing. In fact, this is the thing that I wanted to do since long, but I didn't know how to put it in a way. But I think life has given me the chance for it on its own, and see, you are here now," he continued.
"I really want to make a safe place for you where you can stay whenever you want, because I can't let my girlfriend stay alone in Shanghai wandering somewhere when I get busy in work. How could I, even when I know that you are that silly and stubborn and you will create problems for yourself," he said.
I smiled and said, "I know, Yuan, that I make you worry to the core, but still I want to own your heart, not your house," and I handed back the keys to him.
But Yuan was about to say something, but I stopped him.
"Yuan, see, you said so, I agreed to stay here with you in this house, and I am already owning your heart and that's very much enough for me to live in this world. I don't want to own this house. Take your keys back. And yes, I will come here whenever I feel to, because this house is full of my Yuan's memories, and whenever I miss you, then I'll come here," I said while putting my hand on his shoulders and hugging him.
"So you will come to this house, not to me, when you miss me?" he asked me a bit shockingly.
I smiled, "My over-loaded Margherita Yuan, I want to say that if you are busy in your shootings, you can't be free like me," I said.
He smiled and gave me a warm kiss on my right cheek.
I immediately started blushing, my whole face became bright pink. And then I said to avoid my blushing so that he doesn't notice it, "See, Mr. Xu Yuan, Shanghai weather is already changing very fast. Summer just arrived here, and now with the warmth of your kisses, I can't handle this Shanghai summer. You know it's just too warm to handle for me," I said.
"Stop teasing," he said while a little bit blushing.
Then he said, "Now finish your breakfast fast, we need to go somewhere."
"Where?" I asked him.
He smiled and said, "To make memories for life," he said.
My eyes got wide hearing that. I really don't know what he exactly meant by this and where he is going to take me, but I know one thing — till my Yuan is beside me, nothing wrong is going to happen. Nothing.
I said to myself in my Mr. Heart while looking at his attractive bright face in front of me in the middle of the room with the warmth of the sunlight, which makes him even more charming.
And then as always… I got lost in him...