Hey, Kid.
Hey, fellow humans.
How have all of you been?
Me?
All good!
Or as good as I can be, lol.
Wanna hear something a bit exciting?
I met someone.
She... Is interesting.
Open.
Honest.
Intelligent.
Thoughtful.
She is not at all like anyone who I would have thought would have caught my attention even but a year ago...
We get what we ask for, you know?
And she seems to be all of those things,
At least thus far.
Hmm.
You could still be born, Kid.
She is open to the possibility, and she sounds like someone worth having a You with, lol.
Time will tell.
As it always does.
Lord forbid she just become another poem...
Another series of journal entries.
Lbvs.
I will let you all get to the good stuff, yeah?
Wish me luck!
We have a date coming up!
What will be, will be.
These pages will probably reflect that outcome, lol.
Lord knows ya'll know more than enough about me anyway!
You as well, Kid.
If you exist, that is.
See you all back here soon enough.
Enjoy!
(Hops into the control seat of the Slappery-Slappish-Slappington 3000.1 with all of my fingers and toes crossed that I return to a timeline where someone is madly in love with me!)
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June 1st, 2022.
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Dear You.
I got the urge to write.
For some reason, I just feel like...
You will never make it here.
Like, for whatever reason, I am not meant to have you...
No matter who I meet, what I try to manifest...
Maybe this is just how it is...
I am writing to myself to a You that will never be...
And maybe I will read this ten years from now and be just as sad that you don't exist...
Or maybe you will read this to me...
And prove me wrong...
-Dad.
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(Pops back into 2026, wishing that I had met someone different back in 2005 who WASN'T invested in wasting my time and energy...)
Hmm.
Well, it's only been just under four years since that journal entry was written, so mayhap time is not all lost to me yet, yeah?
I am only 37 as I type this.
Still not 40, lol.
Mayhap I will lose all hope at 40?
Mayhap this new woman is the woman who is meant to be your mother?
Who can say?
Not me, that's who.
I am no Fortune Teller.
Hell, I am hardly a decent Author, lol.
Bah.
Thank you all kindly for your time and energy.
It means a lot to me....
Those are two of the only given things that we can never get back, and I appreciate that you all don't mind sharing with me.
See you all soon, yeah?
Safe travels, Folks.
And as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.