"What are you think about Sweetheart?" Alex said making me jump and he chuckled at me. "Didn't mean to startle you."
"It's okay," I said embarrassed, "I didn't realize you were awake."
"We've been awake for about an hour or so Angel," Asher's gravelly morning voice rang out, "we just didn't want to disturb you, you looked so peaceful sleeping between us."
"Oh." Was all I could manage to get out. Knowing they were awake while I was reliving last night made me feel even more embarrassed and insecure. Was last night good for them? Do they regret everything? Does it change everything between us? Will it be awkward from now on? I had so may questions running through my head.
"Hey Sweetheart," Alex reached his hand up, smoothing my worry lines on my forehead, "what has you making that face? You were just smiling to yourself a few moments ago, why the change?" He asked gently.
I sit up pulling the sheet up with me to cover my breast and took a deep breath in, "Did," I pause, "did last night ruin everything between us?" I look down at me hands in my lap, not wanting to see disappointment or disgust in their eyes, after all I practically threw myself at them by going to bed with only panties on. Yeah they said they wanted what I wanted but couldn't that just be because they are guys. I'm sure if any girl laid in their bed half naked like I didand told them they wanted them they would have done the same with them too. Right!?
Asher reached over and grabbed my fiddling fingers while Alex lifted my chin to look at them. Both of them searching my face for answers I don't know if I could give them.
"Never Baby," Asher answered, "last night could never ruin what we have. Do you regret it?" He looked so heartbroken at the prospect of me regretting what we did.
"No!" I rushed out, "I don't regret a single moment. I just, where do we go from here?"
Both boys let out what can only be described as a breath of relief at my answer.
"Thank the goddess." Asher said.
"We go wherever you want to go from here Sweetheart." Alex responds. "If last night was a one time thing, then we leave it at that. If you want to explore a relationship with us, then we explore a relationship. Whatever you decide we will follow your lead, but Love, just know, our friendship could never be ruined. We promise you that."
I let out a shaky breath at his response and whisper "Okay."
"Angel, if you need time to think about what happened between us, you take the time, okay. We will always be here, no matter what, we promise." Asher reassures me, then he stands up, leans down and kisses my head. "I'm going to go piss, then I'm going start cleaning up the camp site."
Laughing at his bluntness, I shake my head then answer him with another okay. Alex gets up too following his brother out after they get dressed and I am left in the tent for a moment thinking about what they said.
They will follow my lead. If I want a relationship with them we will try to have a relationship. Do I want a relationship other than friendship with them? Do we count last night as a one time thing, an experience to scratch an itch we all have dreamed about?
I get up and start getting dressed, the questions still swarming my head. I honestly don't know what I want. Only one thing is for sure, I don't want to lose them ever, maybe this one night didn't ruin our friendship now but if we continue would it ruin our friendship in the future? I can't let that happen so maybe it's best we just categorize last night as a one time experience and move on like nothing happened. Yeah, that's probably what is best.
Asher's POV
When we woke up this morning Ellie looked so peaceful so we refused to disturb her. Keeping our arms wrapped around her Alex and I cuddled in closer, keeping our eyes closed and enjoying the moment.
Our wolves were both extremely content after Ellie jerked us off last night and both were purring as we watched her fall asleep. Alaric is currently smiling like the Cheshire cat in the back of my mind, ecstatic at the fact we got to feel our girl in ways we always wanted, minus one big way but that way will have to wait until we are all ready.
'I hope it will be soon!' Alaric says, thinking about giving our virginity to Ellie. 'Even if she is not our mate, she is worth it. I'm glad you didn't stick it in any other female like other stupid humans do. Only Ellie or our mate is worthy of that honor.'
'I couldn't agree more buddy.' I link back to ny wolf. It's actually very uncommon for Alpha wolves to hold back from sleeping with women. Usually by the time we hit puberty we will bed almost any willing female but for whatever reason we never had the desire. We have only ever wanted Ellie and whoever our potential mate is. Honestly we still would rather have Ellie first before ever meeting our mate if she isn't but if it never happens then we will be glad to have waited even if we were only technically waiting for Ellie and not whoever our mate is.
Just as I finish that thought, Ellie starts to stir, she tries to stretch but realizes she can't because we basically have her pinned down between us. I peek down at her as she wakes looks at us holding her then the scent of her arousal fills the tent. Her face turns pink and she bites her lip smiling.
'She must be thinking about last night.' Alex links me.
'Must be.' I link back both amused and excited at the thought of her reliving the night.
Just as I am about to ask what she was thinking about Alex beats me to it, causing her to startle and blush. When I let her know we were awake for a while, Alex and I both noticed how she starts to overthink and I become scared she will regret what we did.
Once she confirms she doesn't, I begin to relax and we let her know we will follow her lead. I hope she chooses relationship but I will follow whatever she decides, after all the ball is always in her court. If we make the decision we may hurt her more, especially if it turns out she isn't our mate. It would look like we persued her first just to get into her pants and dump her once we find our mate and she would never forgive us for leading her on. Especially since she would never be able to understand why, we wouldn't be allowed to tell her about us being wolves and what a mate is. However if she chooses to be with us, to persue a relationship and then we find our mate, as much as it will still hurt, at least we can try to spin it as we tried but were just better as friends. That because she wanted to give us a shot at becoming a thrupple we did too but just realized the feelings were not what we thought. It may be kind of selfish either way but at least she can make the final decisions about her heart and not feel like we are pressuring her to be with us, no matter how short it may be.
As I think of this, Alex and I leave Ellie to get dressed. We leave the tent and start cleaning up the campsite. We look for any trash we may have missed and we break down the fire pit. Since this isn't a normal area for campers except for Ellie and her family and occasionally us, we put the things we used for the fire pit back were we originally found it. Making sure there isn't a possibility there could be a fire we drown, stir and feel. We scatter all the ashes, and finsh restoring the area. We want this area to basically look like no one ever touched it. What's that human saying about camping, something like "take nothing but pictures, leave nothing but footprints and memories behind." As wolves we never really thought about all this since we never actually camped outside of packlands and usually if any wolf did they would do so in their wolf forms living like the animals so there technically never was a human footprint to leave behind but when we started going camping with the Berks they taught us all of this and it honestly makes sense. Humans are essentially guests in nature and they wouldn't want to destroy the homes they are guests of so treating it well is a must.
Just as we finish with everything around the tent, Ellie comes out with our bags and kets us know everything inside was packed up so all we have to do is take down the text. Once we do that we do a final restoration of the area and hike back to out car. We all talk and laugh about the trip avoiding the mention of what almost happened at the waterfall and what most certainly happened last night. We will wait until Ellie decides she's comfortable talking about it and what decision she makes.
Goddess please let Ellie decide she wants to attempt a real relationship with us. I want us to be more than friends even if it's just for a little while.