My nightmares kept on getting worse.
To the point that sometimes, I can't even tell if it's a nightmare or if I'm already awake, experiencing it in real life.
There are times that it is terrifying but mostly, it feels like I'm starting to question my own memories.
Everything is jumbled, as if I'm floating in empty space with objects from different time periods surrounding me.
Thankfully, I have enough common sense left in me that I recognize what I'm feeling.
Disassociation.
I always hear about people from my previous world experiencing it. During my medical training, I studied it, but I mostly learned about it in theory.
It's different when you are experiencing it.
Dissociation is a disconnection between your thoughts, memories, feelings, actions or sense of identity.
It's usually a coping mechanism for severe stress or trauma.
Speaking of trauma, I should be getting an award for having the most traumatic experiences without losing my mind.
Um.. I have lost my mind several times, but it's not permanent..
Yet.
When I told dad about my traumatic experiences, even he admitted that it was too much. Hearing those words from a lich.. yeah.. it really puts the magnitude of my experiences into perspective.
That's why the pack tried as much as possible to prevent me from getting too overwhelmed.
But it's hard!
Especially now, with this stupid transformation stone still attached to me, I'm having a hard time controlling my emotions.
I think the transformation stone itself is not the problem, but since it's corrupted, so many unexpected things have happened.
Like, for instance, me having some sort of magic, except I don't know how to make it happen!
It just bursts out of me randomly but to be fair, as long as I'm completely calm and at peace, nothing really happens.
Though I involuntarily transformed myself into a random form.
For now, I can only transform into my deserter and dragon forms on purpose.
But the bigger and more difficult my transformation form is, the more my energy drains.
Like now.
I'm not the one who got transformed but it was Leon.
Dad didn't tell me what kind of incantation it was except that after doing it, Leon would be our ally.
Also, I don't think that dad expected the transformation stone to be corrupted.
And yeah, he did warn me about the result of using the incantation.
I didn't care about the result as long as everyone's safety was my priority.
Now, I'm enjoying the consequences of my decision.
....
I don't know how many days I was asleep.
I'm like sleeping beauty again!
Except, I can't wake up with a kiss.
Somehow, I'm in a state between being wakeful yet still asleep. The term for it is hypnagogia.
Yeah! I can still remember some parts of my medical training!
Ahem.
I know I'm not fully conscious, but I can still hear some sounds, even if they aren't very clear.
But I can feel a bit of sensation in some parts of my body.
Someone is nuzzling me, embracing me and even gently kissing me all over my head and face.
I can't move!
I'm not even sure that what I'm experiencing is real or a hallucination.
Oh, well.
Time seems to move slowly, but my mind is becoming more conscious.
Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, I woke up.
...
Where am I?
It took me several moments of glancing around before clarity started to sink in.
Everything looks so familiar that I have no doubt on it's my room at the palace.
I wonder how many days I was asleep this time?
Now that I'm awake, it's difficult to sit up, because I can hardly move, as if something is preventing me.
After a bit of difficulty, I looked down and saw Sly asleep with his head on my chest.
His arms held tight around me as if I'm his beloved stuffed animal.
But I'm not! And it's getting too hot!
I want to move as I can feel my body starting to cramp!
Though my feelings for him won over my comfort.
Gently, I caressed his head until he slowly woke up.
As soon as he saw me awake, he instantly cried and nuzzled me all over, which started to get ticklish.
I get it that he's relieved but I want to clean myself up first.
He somehow knew my thoughts and without a word, he carried me in his arms into the bathroom.
....
While I was preoccupied washing myself, he kept bringing all sorts of food until I cautiously told him it was a bit much and can't eat as much as I used too.
He looked a bit sad that I immediately admitted that I was kidding and would eat everything.
I hope I won't get an upset stomach after eating everything.
My words perked him up and he hurriedly joined me inside the pool and continued to wash me.
We didn't say anything, even as his touches seemed a bit too suggestive.
I liked it too and admit that I miss his affections.
He sat down and placed me on his lap, then looked into my eyes for a long time.
His eyes are full of joy, desire and a bit of dismay...
Dismay?
I was about to ask him why, when he tenderly ran his fingers through my hair.
Ah.
The blasted length of my hair again.
Again, it's not going to be like that forever!
Also, I can see that it's growing a tiny bit longer.
Ah whatever. It's still short according to them.
To distract him from my hair, I held his face with my hands and kissed him gently.
He held me tight against him as he kissed me passionately, and I felt all his yearning for me as tears fell down from his eyes.
He poured all his feelings for me into his kiss and I reciprocated, kissing him deeply as if I wanted him to devour me.
Please do! But only up to what Lion allows him to do.
I can feel him getting heated, his touches have become intense and desperate, as if he wants me to be closer to him.
Not only him, but I did too as I bit him all over his neck until he began moaning and he remembered that we weren't in his room.
Someone from the pack might enter unexpectedly and it will be awkward...
Maybe for me but not for them.
...
I don't know how Sly did it, but he somehow managed to bring me inside his room without anyone noticing us.
He wrapped a blanket around me like I was some sort of burrito, then carried me in his arms to his room.
Luckily, his room is so near mine that it didn't take long, or else it would have been an awkward explanation if someone had noticed us.
As soon as we were inside his room, something within Sly was unleashed.
He pushed me against the wall as he removed the blanket covering me and kissed me without self-control, as if his years of being patient had started to crack.
His eyes looked at me with passion as he licked my neck, his hands gripping my legs intensely towards him. He whispered that he wanted me to hold him tight, which I did, as I wrapped my arms around his neck.
When I wrapped my legs around him, his breathing became faster as he was soon engrossed in marking me all over my neck and then my shoulders.
I panted as he licked towards my ear, whispering that he couldn't hold back anymore and he has waited long enough.
He paused for a moment before telling me that he wouldn't go so far to break Lion's trust in him.
Only up to what Lion allowed him.
Also if he has my permission.
I chuckled for a bit as I now understood what Alpha meant by Sly being a saint compared to him.
I could see the joy in his eyes when I murmured into his neck, that I'm all his for now and he can do what he wants with me.
Then i bit him.
Gently, of course.
.....
He kept looking at me as he removed his clothes in front of me.
Oh my gosh... His body looks great!
I sat up and touched his body, making him moan. Then I licked him all over his chest, making him chuckle as he told me to wait for a bit, as he wasn't yet done removing his clothes.
I don't care. I want to lick him!
Still, I continued licking him all over his chest, especially the sensitive parts. There I took my time, licking and sucking it until he instantly closed his eyes and moaned.
Gently, I pulled him towards the bed, where he obediently followed and lay down. I straddled him and continued to remove the rest of his clothes.
He kept moaning, grasping the bedsheet as I licked my way down and removed his pants.
When I held his erection, he moaned softly while asking me what I was planning to do with it.
I smiled coyly at him, then began to lick it slowly.
....
He kept moaning my name as I was engrossed in pleasuring him with my mouth and hands. It was difficult at first as his erection is quite big, but I managed.
I noticed that he's quite a talker the more he is aroused.
In fact, I like it as I can easily know what pleases him more.
He's quite sensitive and it didn't take him long to whisper that he was about to...
That was fast.
I have to confess something. It tastes like cinnamon.
Out of curiosity, I continued to lick his erection until he moaned that he can't hold it much longer.
Huh?
That's quite fast!
Of course, it didn't take him long to finish again.
Instantly, the cycle repeated again,
And again,
And AGAIN!
My mouth is cramping! I'm at my limit! It's a miracle that I've lasted this long!
To my horror, it seems that what I did was just an appetizer to him.
Uh-oh.
How big is this appetite of his?!
I hope he has enough energy potion!
....
I'm the one who needs an energy potion!
After a bit of rest, he nuzzled me all over as he pleaded with me that he wanted more.
Is there an energy potion for the mouth?!!
My mouth is waving a white flag at me, so I need to think of another safe way to satisfy his urges.
With limits of course.
So I introduced him to the wonders of my thighs.
....
I'm done!
To be exact, my thighs are done.
Thankfully, Sly seems content, but not until after having several rounds.
If Alpha is the lust king, Sly comes in close second.
Despite being extremely lustful, Lion manages to have self-control unlike the other two. Alpha takes the crown, while Sly is a saint compared to him.
And to think we haven't had intercourse yet.
I seem to remember reading something about dragons way back in my previous world, where it was stated that dragons have intercourse with their mates for weeks.
WEEKS.
As for lycans and werewolves, their intercourse lasted days, but what made it horrifying was that they did "knotting" inside their mate, which lasted for HOURS.
Now I understand better why Lion doesn't want my other mates to have intercourse with me yet.
I would surely get pregnant! But I highly doubt it as Myra said my body is too different.
As for Lion, my intercourse with him doesn't last that long, BUT if he could have his way, we would keep on doing it without stopping at all.
I don't want to know his limit.
.....
Sly placed me on his lap and embraced me while nuzzling my neck.
He kept kissing me all over and even though I liked it, I told him I was at my limit.
Of course he found it funny and told me between his laughs that we should keep on "practicing" to get ready for the real thing as he knew he couldn't stop once he started.
And yes, it's true that dragons have intercourse for weeks.
According to him, what we just did is only the tip of the iceberg for the entire session. Not to mention he has several years of yearning that needs satisfaction.
Mercy!
After laughing for a while, he fed me some fruits that he took from the palace garden. I kept on eating despite not feeling hungry, until I noticed that I was eating more than the usual.
I was about to complain when I saw him looking at me tenderly, as if he were looking at something so precious, so memorable that I ended up swallowing my words.
Afterwards, I asked him why he couldn't enter the tower, as it was quite lonely there when Lion wasn't around.
He looked down and told me he tried to get inside when Maelsa made a surprise visit.
Maelsa placed a stronger magic inside that prevented Sly from entering and threatened to move me elsewhere if Sly attempted it again.
Of course, he was terrified by the thought of being separated from me, so he obeyed and guarded the tower instead.
Yes, he was guarding the tower the entire time I was there.
Even though he can't see or hear me, he's on the roof almost all the time because it is closer to me.
Almost all the time?!
Sly in his dragon form is quite enormous! It was a miracle that the tower didn't get damaged by his weight.
A funny thought came over me. I found it quite funny that our situation might be the origin story for why a dragon guards a maiden.
Hahaha! It's funny if you think about it. They could've exaggerated or twisted some parts, making the dragon the villain and Lion is the hero trying to rescue the...
It's just a random thought, right?
RIGHT?
....
I wonder where Lion is and also the rest of the pack.
Sly told me that Lion is not done talking in private with his father.
Pardon?
Did I hear it right?
His father is here? I didn't see his...
Oh.
Wait.
REALLY?
So.. the incantation plus the magic from the transformation stone somehow did something to restore Leon into his original form??????
And Leon is Lion's father?!!
I DIDN'T SEE IT COMING!
I didn't...
Wait.
The cloudlike bed.
I remembered Lion telling me that his magic is unique, but during our training, when I got sleepy, Leon conjured up a cloud-like bed for me.
I feel like a dummy for not realizing it sooner. Also Leon relied on Lion a lot, which is why he kept asking me back then if I really loved Lion.
Also, our relationship changed for the better after I proved my feelings for Lion were genuine, when Maelsa cast a spell on me, hurting me in exchange for Lion's freedom.
Since that time, he has treated me quite well and has even protected me.
All the signs were there, but I didn't take notice.
But if Leon is Lion's father, how come he is in such bad shape?
I guess I'll ask either Leon or Lion about it later.
.....
That's all Sly knows, as Lion and Leon went to Leon's personal chamber to have a private conversation.
And yes, Leon is like the older version of Lion but with longer hair and both of his eyes are golden.
His hair has grey streaks indicating his age, though Leon would definitely disagree. Maybe his position is so stressful that it caused them.
I see.
Leon is Lion's father. My mind still can't comprehend it.
Hmm.. what about his ultimate form?
Sly thought for a bit before telling me that there wasn't much of a difference between Lion's and Leon's ultimate forms, except for the size, maybe.
Ooohhh.. speaking of the size.. how tall is Leon in his current form?
Sly gave a chuckle before revealing that Leon is quite tall. Taller than Alpha, to be exact.
Then how come...
It's better for me not to dwell on unnecessary questions.
....
If Lion is busy, where are the rest of the pack?
Alpha is busy investigating what happened to make them all go out of control. Orm is assisting, as it's his responsibility as the head of the magic users. As for Ghost, he is busy punishing all the warriors for attempting to hurt me.
But they're all never too busy to visit me daily. In fact, they visited just before I woke up.
Including Lion, even though he can't stay for long, even though he wanted to.
Daily...
Um... How many days exactly was I asleep?
It turns out I was asleep for more than a week.
MORE THAN A WEEK?!
THIS STUPID CORRUPTED TRANSFORMATION STONE!
....
We spent a long time cuddling on the bed.
Sly is quite happy to be able to spend time with me alone.
But I know that it's not the only thing that made him happy.
He kept staring at me, smiling so happily that I couldn't resist any longer and kissed him.
We kept on kissing passionately until he moved on top of me, whispering that it's his turn to please me.
Wait, what?
My mind soon became blank as I became engrossed in the pleasure he gave me.
Oh my gosh.. he's such a good kisser and he's quite skillful with his mouth and tongue down below.. if you know what I mean.. ahh..
He's so good...
I kept on moaning until I noticed that he was moaning as well.
I opened my eyes and saw him pleasuring himself with one hand while simultaneously focusing on pleasing me below.
Now I introduced him to a new way for us to experience pleasure at the same time using our mouths and tongues.
Needless to say, Sly enjoyed it so much that I had to wave the white flag after a few rounds.
My mouth definitely needs a vacation.