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Chapter 119 - Episode 117: The Way It Could Have Been

The night had settled deeper over the hill.

The fire had burned lower now—steadier and softer, its warm glow stretching gently across faces instead of lighting them with sharp, bright flames.

No one had moved much from their places. No one really wanted to.

Kai lay half on his back, arms folded comfortably behind his head, staring up at the vast dark sky. "…okay," he said suddenly, breaking the peaceful quiet, "I have to say something."

Rui let out a long groan. "That's never a good way to start a sentence."

"It is this time."

"It really isn't."

Kai ignored him completely and continued. "This—" he gestured vaguely around the circle with one hand, "—this is weird."

Dev smiled faintly from his spot. "You already said that earlier."

"No, I mean really weird," Kai insisted, sitting up a little straighter now. "Like… we've all been in the same school for years."

"Yeah," Rui replied.

"Same classes almost every day."

"Yeah."

"And we never… did this."

He waved his hand again, this time taking in the entire circle, the dying fire, and the easy space between all of them. "…ever."

A small silence followed. Not awkward. Just… thoughtful and reflective.

Chen was the first to speak. "We didn't really try."

The words were simple. No blame attached. Just a quiet fact.

Kai frowned slightly. "…I mean, yeah. But still."

Rui shrugged lightly. "We stayed comfortably inside our own groups."

Dev added in a quiet voice, "It was easier that way."

Jian leaned back on his hands, his gaze resting on the gently flickering fire. "…you don't really get to know people when it's like that," he said after a moment.

A short pause hung in the air.

"Just seeing them around every day," he continued.

Chen nodded once in agreement. "You think you know them," he said. "But you don't. Not really."

Kai let out a slow breath. "…that's kind of depressing when you put it that way."

"It's just normal," Dev replied softly.

Another quiet stretch settled over the group. The kind of silence that didn't feel like it needed to be filled right away.

Then Rui spoke again, his tone lighter this time. "…if we're still talking to each other after this trip ends, we should come back sometime."

Kai blinked in surprise. "Come back?"

"Yeah," Rui said, gesturing around them. "Like—another trip together. Maybe somewhere different next time."

Dev nodded slowly, considering the idea. "That would actually be nice."

Kai pointed at the group immediately. "Okay, I'm only agreeing if there's way less climbing involved."

"No one is promising that," Chen said calmly.

"Then I'm reconsidering my decision."

"You're still coming anyway," Rui told him with a small grin.

Kai sighed dramatically. "Yeah… I probably am."

Jian smiled faintly, his expression soft in the firelight. "…it wouldn't be bad at all."

Time stretched again between them. Soft. Comfortable. Unhurried.

"Time moves so fast though," Dev said after a while. Not loudly. Just enough for everyone to hear clearly.

Kai made a face. "Why are we getting all emotional again?"

"I'm not getting emotional," Dev said.

"You kind of are."

"I'm just saying what's true."

Chen glanced quietly at the dying fire. "…you don't really notice it while it's happening."

A small pause followed.

"Then suddenly," he continued, "it's already over."

No one joked after that. Not immediately.

Wei had stayed quiet the entire time. Listening, as he usually did.

But this time—he didn't feel like he was standing outside of the moment. He didn't feel like he was merely observing from a distance.

He looked at the fire for a long moment. Then, quietly, he spoke.

"…you only realize something truly mattered…"

His voice was calm and low, but surprisingly clear in the stillness. "…after it has already become a memory."

Silence followed. Not empty. Just… still.

Kai blinked and turned his head slowly toward Wei. "…wait."

Everyone's attention shifted gently toward Wei.

Kai sat up fully now. "Did Cheng Wei just—actually talk?"

A beat passed.

Then—thap.

Rui smacked the back of Kai's head lightly. "Idiot."

"Ow—what was that for?!" Kai protested, rubbing his head.

"Use your brain for once."

"I am using it!"

"Clearly not enough."

Dev laughed softly.

Chen shook his head faintly in amusement.

Kai continued rubbing his head with dramatic flair. "I'm just saying—he never talks this much."

Wei didn't react with offense or discomfort. He simply stayed there, calm and present.

Rui leaned slightly toward Kai. "…he's been talking," he said quietly. "You just didn't listen before."

That simple truth landed gently but firmly.

Kai paused. Actually paused this time.

Then— "…okay," he said slowly, "that might be true."

Dev nodded. "It is."

Chen added in his usual calm manner— "You talk enough for five people. No one else really gets a chance."

Kai pointed straight at him. "That is straight-up slander."

"It's accurate."

"It's not."

"It really is."

Jian laughed again—soft and real.

Wei didn't smile outwardly.

But his gaze lifted and stayed. A little longer than before.

Kai looked at Wei again, this time with less drama and more sincerity. "…still," he said quieter, "that was a really good line."

Wei didn't answer.

But—he didn't look away either.

Someone from another group called out in the distance. Laughter followed shortly after.

The night carried on around them.

Rui leaned back, resting his hands behind him on the grass. "…so yeah," he said, "I guess this trip wasn't that bad after all."

Dev nodded in agreement. "Yeah."

Kai scoffed lightly. "I never said it was bad."

"You complained the entire way up the mountain," Chen reminded him.

"That was before the emotional bonding happened," Kai replied.

"That's not a real thing."

"It is now."

Jian glanced slowly around the circle—at all of them, at the easy space that no longer felt forced. "…it was worth it," he said quietly.

No one argued.

Wei's fingers rested loosely against the ground. Not curled tightly. Not tense. Just… there.

For a long time, he had stayed quiet because it felt easier. Because keeping distance felt safer. Because misunderstanding had always hurt more than silence.

But now— Sitting here. Hearing them. Being seen—not as "the quiet one" or "the distant one," but simply as part of the group—

Something shifted inside him. Small. Fragile. But undeniably real.

The fire burned low and steady. The night deepened around them. Voices softened into comfortable murmurs.

And for the first time— it didn't feel like he was standing outside of something.

It felt like— he was finally part of it.

A memory— being made while they were still living inside it.

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