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Chapter 30 - Jealousy?

The sun was finishing what it had started.

The sky above Arden had gone the colour of something cooling, deep orange at the horizon bleeding into rose, then into a blue that deepened with every step she took. The academy buildings caught the last of the light on their stone faces and held it briefly before letting it go. The gardens on either side of the path were going quiet, the fountains still running, the water darker now without the sun to scatter it.

Selena walked.

Behind her she could hear his footsteps. Steady. Unhurried. He had stopped asking questions two minutes ago and she had not offered him anything in return and the silence between them had settled into something neither of them was addressing.

She kept her eyes forward.

Romano's fiancé.

The word landed again the way it had landed in the corridor. Clean. Precise. Deployed with that particular smile that Maria Romano reserved for moments she had already won.

He didn't even correct her.

Selena's jaw tightened. She relaxed it before it became visible.

She had spent forty minutes this morning on his hair. Forty minutes. She had washed it, trimmed it, braided it with the particular patience she used to reserve for her sisters. Careful, deliberate, the kind of attention you give something you have decided deserves it. She had told herself it was practical. That he looked like a stray and she had a reputation to maintain by association. That it had nothing to do with anything else.

And then Maria Romano had appeared in the corridor with that smile and attached his name to hers like it had always belonged there. Said it directly to his face. To her face. And then walked away as though the matter was settled.

What a thing to do. Selena thought it with the particular coldness she applied to things that actually irritated her. What an absolutely shameless thing to do.

And he had stood there. Given nothing away. And fallen into step beside her afterward like it was already decided.

Shameless. Both of them.

The path curved and Arden opened up ahead, warm lights in windows, the first lanterns being lit along the main street. And above the rooftops, the World Tree.

Its silver bark caught the last of the daylight and held it differently from the stone around it, absorbing and returning it at a different frequency. The leaves, blue and rose, had deepened in the fading light, the blue almost violet now, the rose warm against the darkening sky. It stood in the plaza with the particular stillness of something that had been there long enough to stop needing to prove it.

She looked at it without meaning to and felt the tension in her shoulders drop one degree before she caught it and brought it back.

The Romano family.

She had grown up knowing that name the way you know certain things in a palace. In half sentences, in lowered voices, in the particular silence that falls when a child enters a room where adults were discussing something they had decided children should not know. She had been a very attentive child.

The Romano family collected people. That was the cleanest way to say it. They found individuals with something useful in them. Talent, desperation, a particular kind of damage that made them pliable. And they cultivated that usefulness until it served them. They turned people into instruments precise enough to be valuable and loyal enough to be trusted with things that couldn't be trusted to anyone else.

She found him on her first morning here. The thought moved through her like something cold. Before she even had a uniform. And she said fiancé with that smile.

She's annoying. The word arrived with more honesty than she intended. She is absolutely annoying and she has been since we were children and I should not be surprised.

She wasn't surprised. That was the problem. She was something else, something she was having difficulty naming cleanly and that felt uncomfortably close to what Violette had said that morning.

That burning will to survive. Don't you think having someone like that at your side would be useful?

Selena stopped the thought there.

Because she had thought it too. Not in those words, not with Violette's strategic framing, but the structure of it, yes. She had looked at him in the arena and thought useful. She had looked at him in the corridor this morning and thought asset. She had spent forty minutes on his hair and told herself it was maintenance of something that belonged to her by assignment.

I think about him exactly the way Maria does.

The realization sat in her chest with an uncomfortable weight.

I look at him and I see a pawn. A capable one. A useful one. But a pawn.

The World Tree was closer now. Up close at this hour it was different. The silver bark had a texture to it, not smooth, something almost like old woven metal, each ridge catching the lamplight individually. The blue and rose leaves moved in a wind she couldn't feel from here, slightly out of sync with the air around them, as though the tree operated on its own schedule entirely.

She tried not to think about it.

She thought about it.

My fiancé. The word again. Precise. Deliberate. Maria Romano never said anything by accident. She had grown up knowing that too. Since they were small, since the days when they had still been in the same rooms occasionally, before the distance between their families had calcified into something permanent, Maria had always taken things. Not greedily. Not obviously. With that particular patience of someone who identified what she wanted and simply waited until the moment was right to reach for it.

She always reached eventually.

She always got what she reached for.

Not this time. Selena thought it before she had fully decided to think it. Then she stopped walking.

She stood there for a moment in the lamplight with the World Tree above her and the two moons rising at the horizon. One deep blue, one pale and luminous. The sound of Arden settling into its evening around her.

Then she turned slightly. Not fully. Just enough.

Selena: "What is this about a fiancé?"

She kept walking as she said it. Eyes forward. Waiting for the answer with the particular tension of someone who has already decided they don't want to hear it and is asking anyway.

The silence behind her lasted exactly long enough to make her chest tighten.

Azrael: "Nothing. She's making things up because I didn't answer her request."

Selena exhaled. A short, controlled breath that she hoped didn't sound like what it was.

Selena: "Then why didn't you correct her?"

Azrael: "Arguing with Maria Romano doesn't accomplish anything. She'll believe what she wants regardless."

Something loosened in her. Small. Quiet. She wouldn't have named it if pressed.

A sound escaped her. Brief, almost involuntary, something that in different circumstances might have been a laugh. Light. Real. Gone almost immediately.

She slowed her steps slightly. The dorms were ahead now, windows warm and yellow against the darkening sky. The two moons fully risen, their light settling over Arden in a cool blue that made everything look slightly more permanent than it was.

She opened her mouth. Closed it. Opened it again.

The words came out slightly faster than she intended, aimed somewhere at the middle distance rather than at him directly.

Selena: "When we get back... could you tell me about your past?"

Azrael registered the question before he fully processed it.

He had been walking behind her for twenty minutes in silence, watching the sky change colours above the rooftops, not thinking about anything in particular. Or trying not to. The evening had settled into something almost comfortable, the kind of quiet that exists between two people who have stopped needing to fill it.

And then she had asked that.

He looked at the back of her head. The silver hair catching the moonlight. The slight stiffness in her shoulders that told him the question had cost her something she wasn't going to acknowledge.

He thought about the coliseum. The old woman. The blood on his hands that the rain had eventually washed from the alley wall.

He thought about how long it had been since anyone had asked.

He exhaled slowly.

Azrael: "Alright."

Selena: "Come on. Let's go home."

She started walking again, slightly faster than before. He fell into step behind her.

The moons were high now. The World Tree glowing softly in the plaza behind them, its silver bark catching the moonlight, its leaves moving in that slow private wind. Arden settling into night around them, warm and indifferent and alive.

He walked.

And for the first time since arriving at this place, something that was not wariness moved quietly through him.

He didn't examine it.

He just kept walking.

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