Dairy 20XX/01/09
Today I am very bored,
I have started writing this diary but I am too lazy to write and I have nothing to write,
More of I have no valuable thoughts to write them down,
Now days I was thinking of what is that makes one truly happy,
Because everyone is in pursuit of happiness,
But what exactly is happiness?
Of course, I am talking about,
What makes me happy?
I have lived for so long,
But I have seen many things and understood this,
I am inherently lazy and look for quick gains,
Once I started watching videos about how to study fast a day before exam and I studied nothing nor do I remember what I learned from the videos,
Once I also watched some videos about day trading and learnt some chart patterns and earned nothing but lost the money,
All this loss because of greed for money,
I am not as good as I think I am,
I am kind of arrogant,
It can't be seen outside of my character but I do know it that I have that arrogance inside,
I believe I am someone special,
No what I think I have inside my character is narcissism and immense ego,
I learned trading for a week and thought I could defeat veterans who have been trading for years,
If this is not Narcissism then what it is?
Even though I do not want to,
My mind automatically groups people into different types,
One is those who are way above for me and all I can do is envy them,
And there are those slightly above and I believe I can surpass them easily and there are those who are my equal and I take them as my friends and also who will be eventually surpassed by me,
And at last, there are those who I believe are below me and
Even though I talk with them in humble way,
I look at them as they don't matter or more of, I don't consider them worth of my attention and only take them as my normal friends that good character persona has forced me to make,
More so I take them as my friends as I try to hide my egoistic behavior and treat them kindly instead of giving cold look,
But,
What if I tell you I was tricked by the same group of people who I believe are beneath me,
More so,
I believed I was way above them in both physical and mental capabilities,
I filled so fucking pissed that I wanted to beat shit out of that person,
But was it worth it?
No, more so could I even beat him?
For whole week,
That guy played me like a puppet and I swear to God if he had not revealed that he was the one tricking me,
I swear he would have tricked me for months,
And I asked him why did he stopped after a week and he spoke
"Because you are one my best friend Basanta. Tricking you for a week can be considered a prank but doing it for more than that would be a harm,"
He looked at me and bowed "I am truly sorry, If you felt bad,"
All I did was gave false laugh,
And said "It doesn't matter but don't do it to others,"
He laughed "hahahaha, so you really fell for that trap, hehe"
"..."
He said "But, I can't believe a smart person like you fall for such a simple trap, you have more potential than me Basanta, you will be a great person,"
Now looking back at that event,
All I can think about is, that friend of mine taught me a huge lesson,
Don't underestimate the people,
The person I thought as a normal NPC was one of the smartest people I had ever met,
OH,
Friend thank you for such an invaluable gift,