I gave a small bow and left, leaving him looking thoroughly surprised.
Xavier likely had no idea how much that brief exchange had affected me. He would never know how I'd finally come to terms with my feelings. He was my first love. And yet, it was a love I had already assigned an expiration date to, the very moment I acknowledged its existence.
***
I'd cycled through a lifetime of emotions from the moment her arrival was announced. Excitement, nerves, frustration, anger, relief, sadness—envy—and even a strange sense of being flustered.
My imagination had run wild last night. Looking at my desk this morning, I felt a flush of embarrassment at the daydreams I couldn't suppress. A kiss, a few touches. Her small hands gripping me helplessly before slowly, sweetly accepting me. My hands roaming over her slim body, tangling in her long hair so she wouldn't escape—pinned against this very desk in a locked office.
