I woke up at the noise and looked around at the others to see if they heard it to. Their asleep? Did they not hear or something. Are they seriously asleep while something is banging on the roof door. This is not good..
I try getting up away from Hanna and Ash's grip on me. I manage to after a while and stand up and go to the door immediately to hear more.
BANG! BANG!
It continues but the door feels, lighter? I press my hand against the door and it goes in? What the fuck. I pull my hand out immediately, no pain, no feeling, just uneasiness. I feel like I'm getting sucked in from all directions, like something is trying to tear me apart and make sure I don't repair a single part. My head throbs like hell. My legs go weak and I collapse on the floor infront of the door my hands covering my face and then gripping my hair. I can't breathe it's suffocating.
I tilt my head to the side to see the others. Their gone. Tarp empty and fluttering away. Blood smered all over the roof dripping slowly and tauntingly. The roof seems to grow smaller.
What the hell is happening.
I grip my shirt over my heart with one hand and the other on the floor to support me.
There's no beat.
What is this sick joke?
My breathing is fast and in short pants and I look up. I freeze. Every bone, every organ in my body stops. My mom is standing there looking down at me with that.. that same knife when she tried taking my life with when I was asleep, at the age of 12.
Shit. This is just a dream, I know it is, so why does it feel so real.
The moon highlights mom's face in an eerie way, but her face is not there, just empty, like a manakin.
I scoff.
"Fuck off." I spit out despite the sweat running down my neck.
I don't even want to call that thing mom.
It just keeps it's face down at me holding the knife in the exact same position mom did before she tried stabbing me.
I try standing up but fall back down, my legs weak and terrified. I feel sick to my stomach, the world around me spins and swirls around it's blank face.
I try crawling away, my pants audible and loud. Crawling to the corner of the roof and use the parapet wall to stand up and look over. What's supposed to be my school grounds and city below is just darkness and eyes. Eyes staring at me directly.
I fall back and hold my mouth with both hands. The sickness is overwhelming and I throw up in the corner. Gagging and ringing is all I can hear.
I cough hard then spit to the side and fall back, laying down as my eyes flutter shut then open immediately to see that blank face looking down at me. I practically choke on my own breathe as I look up at it defeated with shaky eyes.
"Go away.. please.. just go away." My voice wavers and my throat bobs.
"Please just leave me alone! Stop coming back in my dreams!" I start crying, I can't even help it as I cover my face with my hands. "Please.."
My nails dig into my cheeks as I continue hyperventilating. I get these dreams a few times in a year, so why is this one affecting me like this, is it because of the zombie things I saw today.. is that why it is worse.. or is it because I felt at ease and trusted others for a moment.
I slide my hands off my face to my sides limply to see the blank face directly in mine now with the knife to my neck.
I want to move but I can't.. The floor below me pulls me in, slowly, mockingly as everything goes dark and blurs.
Arms go around my body from my shoulders holding me then a whisper directly in my ear.
"Alex.. Alexandra.. wake up.. your having a nightmare." Voice is soft.
"Alex, I'm going to give you some water now. Just drink it.. stop being difficult. Jeez.. the things you make me do."
The voice again I hear in the darkness. Then I feel it, something touch my lips and water flow in my mouth down my throat, the sensation cold and soothing my throat from crying in that dream earlier. I swallow it then my eyes flutter open.
Hanna is over me knees on both side of my body, water bottle limply in her hand beside her. I don't see her expression due to the darkness still but I feel relief at seeing her, knowing she's still here and the others.
She wipes her mouth with her backhand for some reason then looks at me with those blue eyes.
"You were sweating and pale in your sleep Alex. Did you have a nightmare?"
Her voice is gentle and comforting, something I never felt with her voice before.
"It's nothing don't worry about it, but thanks." I say back making sure the others don't wake up.
"Alright then..Alex" Her voice tired.
"I'll get off you now." She tries joking weakly and removes her knee and settles back down beside me.
"Thanks.." I mumble.
She just nods and holds my hand without saying anything. I'm too tired to do anything about it, enough has happened today.
Ash is still clinging onto my other arm and Yunjin some how is the other way around, her feet where her head should be? Chase stayed spread out and Hyun and Sieun keep their peacefulness.
I let out a soft sigh before trying to sleep, not have that lucid dream, actual sleep.
Hanna keeps her light grip on my hand and my eyes flicker close. My lips feel wet and moist slightly, probably from the water Hanna gave me. I can't get comfortable with them though..not yet..
Sleep takes me, real sleep where I'm comfortable between Ash and Hanna and hood up to make some sort of pillow for my head.
This is the sleep I needed.