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Chapter 33 - The Weight We Carry

The fire burned low in the nursery hearth, the embers glowing a dull, pulsing crimson beneath a fine layer of grey ash. The scent of charred oak and dried lavender hung heavy in the warm air, mingling with the faint, metallic odour of the medicinal bath that still clung to the room.

Jane hadn't moved from the velvet-backed chair since they had carried Morwenna up from the lower levels. She sat with her spine rigid and her hands lying palms-up in her lap. Her fingers remained curled loose and motionless, as if she had forgotten how to close them or had simply lost the will to try.

Her robes were still damp at the collar, the heavy silk dark and cold where she had held her daughter's limp body against her chest. She hadn't changed, she hadn't eaten, and she had done nothing except watch the slow, shallow rise and fall of the wool blankets.

Cinder hadn't moved either. He lay pressed against Morwenna's side, his russet fur a bright splash of colour against the white linens. His amber eyes remained fixed on her face, glowing with a fierce, protective intensity in the dim light. Every few minutes, his nose twitched as it touched the child's small wrist. He would wait, feeling for the faint thrum of her pulse, and then he would do it again in a silent vigil that never wavered.

Tilly appeared in the doorway, his presence heralded only by the softest brush of his feet against the stone. He stood there for a long moment, his large, watery eyes fixed on the bed and his ears pressed flat against his head. With a trembling hand, the house-elf crossed the room and placed a steaming cup of honey ginger tea on the nightstand.

Jane didn't look at him. She didn't acknowledge the clink of the ceramic against the wood. Tilly didn't speak; he simply withdrew to the shadows of the corner and stood there, watching and waiting to be needed.

The door opened again, creaking softly on its hinges. Celestine stepped inside and crossed the room to Jane's chair, her skirts rustling over the floorboards. She knelt on the floor, ignoring the hardness of it, and took her daughter's cold hands in hers.

"Jane. You need to eat."

Jane blinked, her eyelashes fluttering against her pale cheeks. Her eyes moved slowly, dragging themselves away from the bed to find her mother's face. "I can't leave her."

"No one is asking you to leave her." Celestine's voice remained steady and grounding. The Evans composure held firm, visible in the set of her jaw and the clarity of her gaze, despite the raw red at the edges of her eyes. "But you need to eat. There is food in the dining room and everyone's there. You can be back in twenty minutes."

"I can't."

"You can." Celestine squeezed Jane's hands, her grip firm and insistent. "Bitsy will sit with her. Tilly will stay. Cinder will stay. She won't be alone for one second."

Jane looked back at the bed. She looked at Morwenna's pale face and the white hair spread across the pillow like spun silk. She looked at the small, delicate hand resting on Cinder's thick fur. The silence of the nursery seemed to press in on her, thick and suffocating.

"Twenty minutes," she whispered, her voice barely a thread of sound.

"Yes."

Jane stood. As she rose, her legs nearly buckled, the muscles screaming with a sudden, sharp fatigue. Celestine caught her arm, steadying her and holding her fast until the world stopped tilting. They walked downstairs together, their footsteps echoing through the manor's quiet corridors.

The dining room was full, but it lacked its usual warmth. The long mahogany table was spread with food that no one seemed to notice.

Aldric sat at the head of the table, his face a map of grey exhaustion and deep-set lines. Seraphina sat beside him. Jack sat between his mother and Saoirse, his shoulders hunched and his eyes fixed on a single point on the white tablecloth. The scratches on his arm where Jane's nails had caught him were still there; they were angry, raised lines of red and raw skin that he hadn't bothered to heal. Saoirse kept her hand on his knee under the table, her fingers digging slightly into the fabric of his trousers.

Lucien sat on the other side, his Veela warmth dimmed to barely a flicker, his usual radiance replaced by a hollow, observational stillness. Raphael and Luelle were across from him. Luelle's eyes were red-rimmed and swollen, and Raphael kept a protective arm around her shoulders, his fingers tapping a restless rhythm against her arm.

Viviane sat rigid in her chair, her Beaumont composure cracked at the edges and her hands clasped so tightly that her knuckles were white. Elara stood by the window, a dark silhouette against the glass as she looked out at the gathering night.

Sylvaine sat in the corner, watching everything with her unreadable gaze, her face a mask of silent observation.

Jane took her place between Lucien and Elara. The movement felt mechanical, as if she were a puppet being guided by invisible strings. Elara immediately put a steadying hand on her arm. Jane leaned against the older woman's shoulder, her head heavy and her strength gone.

Tilly and the other elves brought more food. Plates appeared, filled with rich meats and roasted vegetables, but the steam rose and dissipated without anyone reaching for a fork. Aldric broke the silence, his voice rough and gravelly. He hadn't used it much since the screaming had stopped in the bath chamber.

"I spoke with the ancestor."

Every head at the table turned toward him.

"The old woman. In the portrait at the end of the gallery." Aldric's voice gained a bit of strength, though it remained heavy with the night's weight. "She has watched this family for centuries. Longer than any of us have been alive. She has seen every Keith child go through their rituals. Every single one."

He stopped, his gaze drifting to the candles that flickered and guttered in the centre of the table.

"She told me she has never seen this. Not in any Keith child. Not in all her centuries of watching our bloodline."

Jack's head came up at that. His eyes looked hollow, like dark pits in his ashen face.

"She told me something." Aldric looked down at his hands, his fingers tracing the grain of the wood. "The phoenix line is still there. It is still hers. But the way it shows itself, it's different. Changed. She said we have to find out what kind of phoenix Morwenna carries. What form it took when it manifested."

Saoirse's voice was rough, sounding as though it had been scraped by her own tears. "How do we do that?"

"Research. The library. The archives. We search every text we have on phoenix variations, on lineage manifestation, and on anything that might tell us why her magic fought instead of accepting the essence." He paused, his expression grim. "The only thing we know for certain right now is that this phoenix has frost as one of its manifestations."

Jack's head remained up. Something moved behind the vacancy in his eyes—a spark of focus, or perhaps just a different kind of pain. "Frost."

"The frost on the bath. The cold that came from her. That was her. Not the ritual fighting her, but her magic fighting the ritual. It's her magic protecting itself from something it didn't recognise as kin." Aldric met his son's eyes, his voice softening. "It isn't your fault, Jack."

Jack's jaw tightened, his hands curled into tight, white-knuckled fists on the table. Seraphina moved before anyone else could speak. She rose and pulled Jack into her arms, holding him against her chest the way she had held him when he was a small boy. He went rigid for a moment, his body resisting the comfort, and then something in him cracked. His shoulders had begun to shake with a violent, silent tremor. He made no sound, but the grief rolled off him in waves.

Saoirse grabbed his hand under the table and held on with all her strength. Seraphina's voice was quiet and steady as she leaned in. "See? It isn't really your fault, Jack. Even the ancestor has never seen something like this. It isn't your fault."

Jack said nothing. His hands remained fists on the table, his knuckles pressed hard against the wood.

Saoirse leaned in, her voice low and fierce. "We all saw the frost, Jack. At the party. On the windows. We never once imagined her magic would interfere with the ritual. Not once. Not one of us."

Celestine spoke across the table, her voice calm and reasoned. "It isn't your fault, or Jane's, for suggesting the Veela and Lethifold threads. So please don't blame yourself. Don't punish yourself."

She paused, her voice dropping to a more intimate level. "If Morwenna woke and saw her parents like this, what would she feel? You know her. You know how she watches and how she reads things. She would blame herself for your pain. And her recovery would be harder."

Lucien's voice cut through the quiet, carrying that ethereal Veela melody that had seemed to bypass the ears. "Please, Jack. If you can't do it for yourself, then do it for us. Do it for Morwenna."

Jane's shoulders shook. Silent tears slid down her cheeks, hot and stinging. She pressed her face against Elara's shoulder and let them fall, the fabric of the other woman's robes soaking up the moisture. Elara's arm tightened around her, a solid, unyielding support.

Saoirse broke the silence again. "Father has already said we can look for more phoenix information. Isn't that better than sitting here weeping? The more information we have, the better our chances are. Two years isn't short. But it isn't long either."

Luelle nodded, her voice thick and congested. "She is right. We all want to see Morwenna grow up healthy and happy. And..." She glanced at Raphael, who nodded encouragingly. "We need to document this. Not as a standard Alberich case, but as a child with two prominent lines from both parents. Four magical creature lines with equal weight. We found there's a chance one of those lines has a mutation in its manifestation. That's vital."

Raphael picked up the thread. "We can record what we already know. The frost. The small, accidental magic that had kept appearing. We can record every effort and every reaction until we find the answer." He looked around the table, meeting each gaze in turn. "We make Morwenna safe. And in doing so, we help other children. Future children of our house, and maybe other houses too."

Nods went around the table, slow and solemn. The air in the room had seemed to shift, the weight of helpless grief turning into the weight of a task.

Aldric looked at Jack, then at Jane, and finally at the room full of people who had come for a simple birthday and had stayed for something else entirely.

"Then that's what we do."

The next morning, the library became a war room.

The scent of old parchment, vellum, and drying ink filled the vast space. Books covered every available surface, their leather spines glinting in the morning light. Stacks of heavy tomes had risen from the floor like small towers. Scrolls had spilled from their wooden cases, their ends curling across the mahogany tables.

Aldric worked at the main table, surrounded by texts on magical creatures and inherited traits. Seraphina sat across from him, her quill scratching as she cross-referenced anything that mentioned phoenix variations. Saoirse had claimed a corner with a pile of thick bestiaries, her dark hair escaping its tie and falling over her face as she worked.

Raphael and Luelle took the east wall, pulling everything that touched on elemental manifestations from the high shelves. Lucien worked beside them, his presence a quiet, steady warmth in the chaotic silence. He pulled texts on creature lineage and passed them to whoever needed them next, his movements fluid and efficient.

Celestine had commandeered a reading nook near the window, where the light was best for the faded ink of the oldest French texts. Her quill moved steadily across her parchment, noting anything that mentioned cold or frost in connection with avian lines.

Viviane had claimed a desk near the card catalogue. She was writing letters to Beaumont contacts, to researchers she knew in France, and to anyone who might have access to texts the Keith library had lacked. Her handwriting was precise and efficient.

Sylvaine sat apart with a stack of genealogical records that smelled of dust and time. She was tracing phoenix lines through Keith history, her eyes scanning for any obscure mention of cold manifestation or abnormal ritual reactions. Her quill scratched a steady, lonely rhythm against the silence.

The library worked. Pages turned with a soft, dry rustle. Notes accumulated in neat piles. No one spoke except to ask for a book or to confirm a reference. Jack was there too. He sat at his father's right hand, turning pages with mechanical precision. He read, he noted, and he handed texts to Aldric without being asked. He hadn't spoken more than three words all morning, his face still pale and drawn, but he was working. That was something.

. . .

In the nursery, Jane sat in her chair. Morwenna hasn't woken. Sometimes the child would whimper in her sleep, small, high-pitched sounds that had made Jane's chest seize and her breath would hitch. Sometimes she would go completely still, her breathing so shallow it was invisible, and Jane would lean forward, her heart would hammer against her ribs as she would count breaths until she finally saw the blankets rise again.

Cinder would never leave her side. When Morwenna would whimper, his ears would flatten against his skull and he would let out a low, worried chuff. When she stilled, his nose would press against her wrist, checking for the heat of her life. He was watching. He was always watching.

Elara had appeared in the doorway just past noon, her shadow stretching across the floor. Jane looked up. Her eyes were red-rimmed and bloodshot, her face a dull grey with exhaustion. She hasn't slept at all. Elara had crossed the room and had sat on the edge of the bed. The mattress dipped under her weight. She reached into the deep folds of her robes and withdrew the silver bracelet.

"It's ready," she said, her voice soft in the quiet room. "The new layer is in place."

Jane looked at the silver. It gleamed in the grey light filtering through the windows, the finely engraved script catching the dim glow of the fire. She reached out and touched the metal with a trembling finger. It felt warm—warmer than it should have been—pulsing with a faint, rhythmic magic.

"Will it hold?"

"Yes." Elara leaned over and fastened it around Morwenna's small wrist. The silver settled against the pale skin, and for a moment, the child's face seemed to relax. The deep furrow between her brows smoothed away. Her breathing deepened and became more rhythmic.

Elara sat back, her gaze moving to Jane. She took in the deep hollows under the other woman's eyes and the way her hands lay loose and useless in her lap.

"You need to sleep."

"I know."

"Not here. In a bed."

"I can't."

Elara was quiet for a moment, the only sound the crackle of the fire and the wind against the glass. Then she shifted, moving from the bed to the floor. She sat at Jane's feet, her back against the chair, and reached up to take Jane's hand in her own.

"Then I will sit with you."

Jane looked down at her. She looked at the grey-streaked hair and the composed face that had been her anchor since she was a small child. She looked at the hand wrapped around hers, warm and solid.

"You stayed," Jane whispered. "You never stay this long."

Elara didn't answer. She just held Jane's hand and watched Morwenna breathe.

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