I like seeing him in the fluffy baby blue bathrobe, maybe because I had bought it for him and he clung more onto me when he had it on. It was cute...on other days.
As my eyes raked over him, I noticed he hadn't tied the damn thing properly and water was still dripping from his long hair. He looks appetizing, what is he really up to?
"Dry your hair first"
"Can you help me?"
Yeap, totally sober this guy. Had he been playing me?
"Come here!"
And the little bunny had the audacity to just...I quickly pick one of his small blankets and covered him up. I don't want to go into a rabbit hole at this moment.
"Do you have a headache?"
"No!"
"I've prepared painkillers, take them if you do."
"Okay!"
His body was warm, his eyes looked tempting while I was blow-drying his hair...his lips more so. I need a distraction.
"How was your day?"
"Great! I got work done, begun the full scale pattern."
"That means you'll start sewing soon!"
"Not yet...but soon yeah! I hope to get to it. Taffy taught me a little, seems fun."
The strands under my fingers were soft to the touch. Now I don't want to stop...but it was dry and he needed to sleep.
No... I had forgotten something important. He'd sleep after he'd gotten dressed.
The eyes that turned to look at me when I told him about this seemed accusatory. What had I done? Didn't he know men...even I couldn't be trusted?
"Don't you like me?"
"What now?"
I ...it just came out. I really hadn't known how I blurted that out and it must have sounded worse than I imagine.
"Blane I..."
The kiss...no peck on my lips caught me off guard. I pull myself away from him then look at those beautiful boba eyes that now held confusion and...,hurt? He whipped away his head before trying to get off the bed, I hold onto his wrist.
With the way he'd sat before, once he stood I don't think I'd be able to explain myself for what I'd do...seriously.
"Blane..."
"Let me go!"
"I like you...a lot. I also want you...more than you'd think. But I want to know you well, for you to also know me well before we moved forward with anything we'd want to keep forever and you wouldn't run from."
"Do I look like I want to run?"
"Yes!"
I am not wrong. Even though he had actively leaned in to ki... peck me, he'd seemed hesitant. He feels like someone who would take off at the first sign. Although some other times he seemed like he'd stay for anything, his flight signs were more apparent. That had been why all through I'd chosen to ease my way to him and not just tank it through.
"I also want to know your family, want you to meet mine..."
He seems to flinch at that, will he run away as well because of this?
"...if I am worried you'll run, isn't it better to take it slow?"
"I am not running, just say you don't like me like that."
I pull him closer to me and hold him. At least he wasn't hyperventilating... don't ask.
Thinking about it, he hadn't gone out much if I wasn't with him and definitely never out to drink before. Is this the reason he'd gone out with his friends today? Had he needed liquid encouragement for something that was a done deal? If so, then he really needed to know me better than he already did.
But with his anxiety issues, he might need assurance more than anything. I pull away looking at his face, he really was a looker. I hold his chin and lean in, kissing him, savouring it though he kept his mouth close...come on man.
I let go and look at his, at his tightly shut eyes and the way he was having a problem breathing as he'd held his breath. He looked like he was really waiting for more and I wanted to give in but we really have a long way to go. This could wait a while.
"I like you Blane, I like you so much. It's to the point I want to hide you and even gorge out people's eyes. I want you to only look at me, to only be free with me..."
But before anything, I really need to meet his parents...and that nanny that kept calling me to ask how he was though she pretended not to care about him.
"Be my boyfriend okay!"
"Huh! What?"
"Will you be my boyfriend? Let me court you formally."
This way, I'd stop those damn suitors with a good enough reason.
"Are you serious?"
"Yes!"
"Then can we kiss in public?"
"I guess so, yes! If you want."
"Of course I do. Those girls keep oogling at you...I hate it."
"Then we'll do that."
The kissing was mega okay with me. Although the school has a certain policy over PDA I am sure I won't really cross that boundary.
"Okay!"
"Okay what?"
I want to hear him say it. I also want to record it but not now.
"I am your boyfriend. Don't look at others and don't make me angry...even a bunny bites."
"I won't."
I hold onto him... hugging him and taking in his scent. He'd used my soap and even shampoo bu somehow the scent was better on him... more...enticing. It was making me more aware of my earlier predicament. I need an ice cold shower right about now.
"Change into your pajamas, let me go shower."
"But..."
"I know you're naked in there Blane..."
Please don't make me do something I know you're not ready for.
The "you" and the hurumph got me chuckling as I quickly stood up...dashing to the bathroom before that robe fell off completely.