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Chapter 13 - What Should Not Be

The gardens of Sandringham and Windsor came alive again, as if the long winter had never truly happened.

Yet for some, the season had never really changed.

George's life had shifted drastically. Once merely a naval officer, he was now the heir to the throne.

But that was not the only change.

His days now felt different—not only because of new duties, not because of rank or responsibility, but because of something far simpler, and far harder to ignore.

His time with Mary.

He began to notice it in small things. The way he searched for her presence in every room, the way conversations flowed more easily when she was near, and most troubling of all… the way the silence between them never felt empty.

George stood by the tall window that afternoon.

Outside, the garden looked calm. He knew Mary was there.

Walking as she always did—quiet, composed, steady.

As if the world had never changed.

But for George, everything had changed. And he was no longer sure how to face it.

He took a long breath.

What he felt was not something he could simply dismiss. Yet it was also not something he could accept easily.

Mary was his brother's fiancée.

Or… she had been.

And although time had passed, that shadow still remained.

Unshakable. Unforgivable. Unforgettable.

He feared hurting his brother's memory.

"What are you thinking about?"

The voice made him turn.

His mother, Alexandra, stood behind him.

George did not answer immediately. He rarely spoke about things like this.

But his mother always had a way of seeing more than he ever said.

"Many things," he finally replied.

Alexandra stepped closer.

"Does Mary of Teck happen to be one of them?"

George fell silent.

The question was too precise.

And too honest.

Days grew longer.

Sunlight lingered over England's skies. And with that change, royal life moved more actively once again.

At Windsor, Queen Victoria arranged family visits as usual.

But within those invitations, there was a pattern few noticed.

Sometimes Mary of Teck was invited. Sometimes she was not.

To most, it seemed like coincidence. But to Queen Victoria, nothing was ever truly accidental. She was observing something.

Something that could not be measured in words.

At every gathering where Mary was present, the atmosphere changed.

More alive.

More balanced.

Conversation flowed more easily.

And without realizing it, many began to adjust to her presence.

Including George.

But when Mary was absent… something was missing.

Not obvious. Not easily named. But undeniably felt.

Those closest to George noticed the change most clearly.

When Mary was present, he became softer, more patient than usual. He stayed longer at gatherings. But when she was not there, he returned to being distant, rigid, uninterested in conversation.

He began asking whether Mary would attend. Whether she was coming. Why she was absent.

It was the most visible change in him.

His sisters recognized it immediately. They knew him well.

George was not expressive. So if he could remain in a room longer than usual—just because of one person—then it meant something.

Something he himself had not yet admitted.

He would not name it yet. Not openly. Not even to himself.

Because doing so meant crossing something irreversible.

And he was still afraid of what it might cost.

But slowly, it revealed itself in ways he could no longer ignore.

One afternoon, during a family gathering in the sitting room, he found himself looking toward the door more often than he should have.

As if waiting.

But the door never opened.

Mary did not come that day.

He tried to ignore it.

Tried to return to the conversation, to the voices around him.

But his attention kept drifting back to the same absence.

A silence that felt heavier than words.

Days later, Mary returned.

And without warning, George felt it immediately.

The same room. The same people.

But everything felt different.

Mary spoke calmly with Alexandra of Denmark, smiling occasionally, never demanding attention.

And yet she anchored the room without effort.

George glanced at her more than once, longer than he should have.

And in that simple repetition, the truth became clear.

Not through confession.

Not through words.

But through comparison.

Her presence made everything feel lighter.

And her absence… made everything feel hollow.

The realization came without warning. And once it arrived, it could no longer be avoided.

That night, after the household had retired, George walked alone through the long palace corridor.

His steps were slow. His thoughts heavy.

He stopped by a large window.

Outside, the garden lay swallowed in darkness.

He tried to understand what he felt.

But the more he searched, the clearer the answer became.

This was not habit.

Not comfort.

Not something temporary.

He closed his eyes briefly, exhaling as though finally acknowledging something he had long resisted.

"I can't pretend anymore," he whispered.

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