September felt endless.
Not because of time…
but because of everything I was waiting for.
10 September
University is about to open soon.Maybe… everything will be okay again.
I held onto that thought.
Tightly.
Like it was the only thing keeping me from falling apart completely.
We were still at home.
Same room.Same routine.
But nothing felt the same anymore.
The days passed quietly.
Too quietly.
You were still there…
somewhere.
But not with me.
"Hope is a strange thing… even when everything feels broken, it still makes you believe things can be fixed."
I started thinking about university.
Not for classes.Not for studies.
For you.
Maybe when I see you again…we'll talk.
Maybe everything was just a misunderstanding.
Maybe all we needed—
was one conversation.
14 September
I just want to talk to him once.That's all.
I replayed everything in my head.
Every message.Every moment.
Trying to find where things went wrong.
But no matter how much I thought…
I never found the answer.
"Sometimes, we search for reasons… when all we really want is a chance to fix things."
I didn't understand myself anymore.
The way I felt.The way I reacted.
I was never like this before.
Never this quiet.Never this lost.
Never this affected by someone.
But now…
everything felt different.
You had changed something in me.
Something I couldn't go back from.
18 September
I don't recognize myself anymore.But I don't hate this version of me either.
Because even in all this confusion…
there was something real.
Something I couldn't deny.
I loved the way you made me feel.
The comfort.The happiness.
The version of me that existed with you.
Even if it hurt now…
I couldn't bring myself to regret it.
"Some feelings are worth the pain… because they once made us feel alive."
I wasn't even aware of what this was.
Didn't name it.Didn't question it too much.
All I knew was—
I wanted things to be okay again.
I wanted us back.
And maybe…
university would bring that chance.
22 September
I'm waiting.Not for time… but for you.
I didn't know what was going to happen next.
Didn't know how things would turn out.
But somewhere inside me…
there was still hope.
A quiet, stubborn hope—
that things would go back to the way they were.
"I didn't know what the future held… I just knew I was walking into it with a heart that still chose you."