Day 3 – "Khud se ladna sabse mushkil hota hai"
Subah ke 7:10 baj rahe the.
Aaj Sakshi late uthhi.
"Bas… aaj school nahi jaana…" usne blanket ke andar se hi decide kar liya.
Par next moment—
"Mummy chillayengi… attendance bhi low ho jayegi…"
Usne zor se saans li… aur uth gayi.
Mirror Moment
Brush karte waqt usne mirror mein khud ko dekha.
Aankhon ke neeche halka sa dark circle aur face pe thodi si thakan.
"Kal se khud se compete karungi…"
Usne diary ki line yaad ki.
Phir khud hi hasi aayi.
"Bolna easy hota hai… karna nahi."
School – Ek Normal Din?
Aaj class mein tests wapas mil rahe the—unit test ke.
"Ab yeh bhi dekh lo…" usne socha.
Teacher ne copies distribute karni start ki.
"Riya – 18/20"
"Neha – 19/20"
Sakshi ka naam aaya.
"Sakshi – 15/20"
Usne copy li… aur seedha marks pe nazar gayi.
"Yeh toh aur bhi kam hai…"
Dil ekdum heavy ho gaya.
Inner Thoughts
"Main pehle aisi nahi thi…"
"Main focus kyun nahi kar paa rahi…"
"Kya main actually average ho gayi hoon?"
Teacher kuch explain kar rahi thi… par Sakshi ka mind kahin aur tha.
Ek Unexpected Baat
Class khatam hone ke baad, teacher ne usse bulaya.
"Sakshi, ek minute."
Wo dheere se aage gayi.
"Tumhari performance thodi drop hui hai. Sab theek hai?"
Sakshi thodi awkward ho gayi.
"Ji ma'am… bas thoda…"
"Pressure le rahi ho?"
Yeh sunte hi uski aankhon mein halka sa pani aa gaya… par usne control kar liya.
"Thoda…"
Teacher ne softly bola,
"Marks important hain, par tumhari mental state zyada important hai. Relax karo. Tum capable ho."
Yeh words simple the… par direct heart pe lage.
Corridor Scene
Class ke baad wo corridor mein chal rahi thi.
Tabhi phir se uski nazar Aman pe padhi.
Is baar wo notebook mein kuch likh raha tha.
Sakshi thodi der ke liye ruk gayi.
"Main hi kyun itna overthink kar rahi hoon… shayad sab struggle kar rahe hain…"
Aman ne upar dekha.
Dono ki aankhein ek second ke liye mili.
Phir dono ne awkwardly nazar hata li.
Break Time – Real Talk
Riya ne usse dekha.
"Marks mile?"
"15…"
"Yaar tu itna stress kyun le rahi hai?"
"Because… mujhe lagta hai main khud ko lose kar rahi hoon."
Riya serious ho gayi.
"Tu marks nahi hai, Sakshi. Samjhi?"
Yeh line simple thi… par uska effect deep tha.
Ghar ka Pressure (Again)
Ghar aake papa ne poocha,
"Aaj school kaisa tha?"
"Theek…"
"Agli baar 90+ lana hai. Focus karo."
Bas.
Conversation khatam.
Par pressure double ho gaya.
Raat – Turning Point?
Aaj Sakshi ne diary open ki… par likhne se pehle ruk gayi.
Usne ek blank page dekha.
Aur likhne ki jagah… ek list banayi:
"Kal se kya change karna hai?"
Phone kam use karna
Daily 2 ghante focus study
Compare nahi karna
Khud ko blame nahi karna
Usne list dekhi.
"Chhoti chhoti cheezein… shayad kaam kar jaayein…"
Last Thought
Sone se pehle usne ek aur line likhi:
"Day 3:
Shayad main perfect nahi hoon…
Par main try kar sakti hoon better banne ki."
Usne light off ki.
Aaj bhi problems wahi thi.
Par pehli baar…
Usne solution ke baare mein socha.
To be continued…