I did not sleep that night either.
Aldric came inside and sat in the chair by my fire for three hours and we talked.
I sat on the bed hugging my knees and listened, and by the time he finished I felt like someone had taken the floor of my entire life and quietly replaced it with something I did not yet know how to stand on.
A Bloodanchor. Me?? I could not believe my ears.
He explained it slowly, the way you explained something to a person who needed time to absorb each piece before you handed them the next one.
His voice was old and careful and held the particular quality of a man who had been keeping this information alive in silence for a very long time and was relieved, finally, to release it.
A Bloodanchor was not a wolf gift in the traditional sense. It was something older than wolf gifts. Older than pack structures, older than Alpha bloodlines, older than most of the magic the known territories had forgotten they once knew. It was a bloodline ability - passed matrilineally, mother to daughter, skipping generations without warning, appearing when the world had specific need of it.
What it did was this: it could interface with active magic. Bind it. Redirect it. In the most extreme cases - with training, with development, with the kind of deliberate cultivation that had been categorically denied to me for nineteen years - a Bloodanchor could break a curse entirely.
My mother had been one. Not as powerful as me though, Aldric said and the way he said it, made it worse somehow.
She had been strong enough to draw attention.
Strong enough that the Ashveil Alpha, my father, the man who abandoned me, had married her for it. Had used her quietly, the way powerful men used things they did not want to acknowledge publicly.
And when she died of causes Aldric's expression made very clear he did not believe were natural - my father had turned his attention to the daughter she had left behind.
He had tested me at four years old, Aldric said.
A small thing. "A simple candle he had
cursed with minor dark magic, held near my crib. The flame had gone out the moment I
reached for it."
His response had been to begin immediately, making certain I never developed into anything.
Fifteen years of calculated invisibility.
Fifteen years of servant work and deliberate
smallness and the message, delivered in a thousand small ways, that I was nothing and
would never be anything.
Not indifference. Terror.
He had been terrified of me since I was four years old. Terrified of my capabilities.
I sat with that for a long time while the fire burned low.
"Why didn't he just..." I stopped. Started again. "Why didn't he get rid of me?"
Aldric looked at me. His expression went still.
"Killing a Bloodanchor draws attention from forces that even Alphas fear," he said. "The
old magic notices. And retaliates. He could suppress you. He could not destroy you
without consequences he wasn't willing to face."
So instead he had buried me alive in plain sight.
And then because the universe had either a profound sense of irony or a very specific
plan he had handed me directly to the one place in the world where my ability was most
desperately needed.
"The curse on Caius," I said.
"Is not a natural curse," Aldric said. "It was placed deliberately. By someone who
understood what they were doing. Someone with access to very old magic."
"Who?" I asked.
"That," he said, "is what we need to find out before Zoran finds out what you are. Because if Zoran gets to you first, he won't use you to break the curse." He paused. "He'll use you to control it. And through it - to control Caius entirely."
The fire had burned to coals by the time I spoke again.
"Does Caius know about Bloodanchors?" I asked.
"He knows the theory," Aldric said. "He doesn't know you are one. Yet."
"When I tell him- "
"When you tell him," Aldric said carefully, "everything changes. Be certain you are ready for that. Because a man who has spent three years believing he will die from this curse and is suddenly told there is a solution standing in his own house - that is not a simple conversation."
He eventually left before dawn. I lay back on my bed replaying what he had told me.
I again felt the burning on my neck and thought about my father's face the last time I had seen it. That look he gave me. Above my left shoulder. The practiced avoidance of a man who could not look at something that frightened him.
I had spent nineteen years of my life trying to understand what I had done wrong.
I hadn't done anything wrong. I had simply been born. That was my mistake, allegedly.
And that had been enough to terrify him.