But right after saying yes…
something hit me.
"Wait…"
Tomorrow is my Chemistry exam.
I froze.
Now the question was…
Should I go with her… or not?
I looked at my books.
Then I looked at my phone.
Then I imagined Somi waiting for me at 7 PM.
"…I'll study later."
And just like that…
I made the worst…
or maybe the best decision of my life.
I chose to go with her.
At 7 PM, I met her.
And honestly…
I was really happy.
She was giving me a pizza party.
A pizza party.
For me.
If someone saw me at that moment,
they would think I had already achieved success in life.
We sat together.
At first, it was a little awkward.
Very awkward.
I tried to act normal and said,
"So… you like pizza?"
She looked at me and said,
"…Yes."
Great.
Amazing conversation.
I nodded like I understood something deep.
But slowly…
things became a little comfortable.
She smiled a few times.
I tried not to stare too much.
(It was very difficult.)
For me…
that evening felt special.
After coming back home…
I was so tired and happy that I just went to sleep.
The next morning…
I woke up peacefully.
Then suddenly—
"WAIT."
Today is my Chemistry exam.
My soul left my body for a second.
I had done zero preparation.
Still…
I somehow went to give the exam.
Just like Physics…
this one also didn't go well.
My Chemistry exam was… average.
When I came back home,
I felt really angry at myself.
Why did I not give my best?
What am I even doing?
For the first time…
I was disappointed in myself.
But even after all that…
I couldn't stop thinking about her.
Day and night…
I kept thinking about Somi.
Her smile…
Her voice…
That pizza evening…
Everything.
And maybe because of that…
things started changing again.
Now, Somi began coming directly to me with her homework.
"Can you do this?"
"I don't understand this…"
"Help me with this project…"
And like always…
I said yes.
But there was one thing I noticed.
She mostly talked to me…
only when she needed help.
And when I was doing her work…
she would just sit beside me…
scrolling reels.
Sometimes she would laugh at her phone.
Sometimes she would chat with someone on Instagram.
And me?
I was doing all her work silently.
Without saying anything.
Homework…
Drawings…
Science projects…
Finding information on random topics…
I did everything.
One time, I even thought,
Am I her friend… or her unpaid worker?
But still…
I didn't stop.
Because somewhere inside me…
I was just happy that she was coming to me.
Even if it was only for work.
And maybe…
that was my biggest mistake.