Ghost (the internal struggle)
Back of the room in shadows in a corner
Red stain of sin sticking to my skin
I feel breath at my shoulder
But there's nothing closing in
I listen closely, walking slow
My eyes shut tight
Chasing a heartbeat that I can't find
Every part of me wants contact to connect
Every part of you is in my mind (in my mind)
You're like a ghost, out there somewhere yet far from me
I feel your presence where you're not
Every move like you're right beside me
Every instinct of longing, you're all I got
I'm dreaming of somebody
Who never really sees me
You imprinted yourself onto my heart, daydreaming
And it's the sweetest agony
Your whisper of love declaration, traces the back of my neck
But the mirror shows only me
I'm aching for something that doesn't exist yet
Pressing me deeper into insanity
I grip my hands near my heart,
I imagine you do the same, calling me to you.
Like you know every little need
I'm begging for the solid truth
But you're just air I wanna breathe (wanna breathe)
You're like a ghost, out there somewhere yet far from me
I feel your presence where you're not
Every move like you're right beside me
Every instinct of longing you're all I got
I'm dreaming of somebody
Who never really sees me
You imprinted yourself onto my heart, daydreaming
And it's the sweetest agony
Take these lonely moments
Fill them with your heartbeat
Haunt me in the open
Right here with me
If you were ever real
You'd say I'm yours, and you are mine.
Instead I'm dreaming past age thirty
With a fantasy of mine (yeah)
You're like a ghost, out there somewhere yet far from me
I feel your presence where you're not
Every move like you're right beside me
Every instinct of longing you're all I got
I'm dreaming of somebody
Who never really sees me
You imprinted yourself onto my heart, daydreaming
And it's the sweetest agony
Im trying not to make an idol of love
For longing not to turn to lust
But you make it hard to fight these desires,
When i know sin will use me then leave me in the dust
I dream of a man to call my own,
Yet when i wake im all alone
You're like a ghost, out there somewhere yet far from me
Whisper of a beautiful life together that I cannot see
Make the empty crevices of my heart feel crowded
While I'm listening to your heartbeat
I'm reaching for somebody
Who lives just out of reach of me
You're like a ghost, out there somewhere yet far from me
Till I'm nothing but crying out for the presence of thee!
Psalm 42:1–2
"As the deer pants for the water brooks, so pants my soul for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God..."
Psalm 73:25
"Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You."
(Read after "woman, that is me")