Jay-jay (POV)
The boys are whispering among themselves, fighting .
"How could you say that, Keifer?"David said.
I heard Yuri punch Keifer and said, "I have never expected such behaviour from you"…c-in sodding…
"Jay-jay won't forgive us," Drew said.
"Why did you lie, Kiefer?" Rory asked.
"I thought she would punch him," Blasted said.
"I'm scared now, she's not saying anything, Kiefer," Felix added.
Everyone was arguing, but I ignored them. I can only hear Kiefer's voice in my head. Even when I'm silent, my mind is so loud. Do I really not deserve love??? Did I do something that deserves this betrayal?? Maybe he is right, that I'm desperate to love?? Because really, I don't have anyone to love me…everyone expects something from me. To my mom, I'm just an obligation for her marriage; my brother doesn't want to acknowledge me as a sister, and my dad doesn't even remember his daughter... My twin doesn't know that I exist in this world... Angelo Kuys: Of course, who tried to fix the marriage for business? Maybe I'm the sin… What did I do to deceive them? Did I ask too much?? Did I ask to be born??. I looked down at my trembling hands as tears slipped down my face.
"Why, Yuri, you can have her now…you don't have to worry about me anymore, she will love you", Keifer says while laughing after hearing it. I just walked towards him like teleportation before he realised I was already in front of him.
I slapped him.
"Don't talk about me like I'm some piece of cloth…that you can pass to everyone." I said, my voice broken, "I... I loved you, Kiefer, with everything I had. I don't know how to stop loving you anymore... You said you're mine and I'm yours. Now Why are you doing this to me?... Out of everyone, why are you hurting me like this? It hurts so much here," I said while pointing towards my heart. "Even when everyone was saying not to choose you... It was always you... I thought I finally found happiness in my life... that I could be happy with you… What did I do to you?? What I do to deserve this pain…it's killing me, Kiefer..."I said, clutching my chest as I sank to the floor, trembling with the fear of losing myself, as I had shattered into a million pieces. I pulled my knees to my chest.
Even with everyone watching, I didn't care anymore.I couldn't hold it in any longer. All the pain I had been carrying finally broke free. I started crying like a child who had lost the one thing they loved most.
And I couldn't stop sobbing.
My heart suddenly started pounding in my chest. I struggled to breathe. My chest felt tight, and every breath felt like needles stabbing into me. I clutched at my chest as my shoulders rose and fell rapidly.
Then I collapsed onto the floor.
"J-Jay," C-IN called me and knelt in front of me to look at my face... Everyone was running to me.
But my eyes never left Kiefer. He stood there like a stone. It hurt even more now because every time something happens to me, he is the first one to reach out to me. Now he was just watching me. In that moment, I realised the men I loved had slipped through my hands like a dream...I didn't know him anymore. He wasn't my man anymore. I couldn't help anymore. I cried harder.
They are all panicking, rushing to support me. I couldn't help but feel helpless and terrified as I gasped for air; tears were falling down my face.
"Jay… breathe," C-IN said softly, tapping my cheek. "Breathe in… and out…"
"I can't," I cried, clutching at my chest. "I can't breathe… it hurts… no matter what I do, I can't…"
"C-in… What is happening to her??" David asked while helping to lift me. My vision is becoming blurred with tears ...
"She's hyperventilating," C-IN said as he quickly loosened the buttons on my collar to help me breathe.
Kiefer grabbed his wrist and shoved his hand away.
"What are you doing?!" he shouted.
Everyone froze in shock.
"I'M HELPING HER TO BREATHE, KIEFER!" C-IN shouted back.
It was the first time I had ever seen him raise his voice at anyone—especially Kiefer.
Everyone stared in silence.
The calm, quiet boy suddenly looked deadly serious.
"Her lips are turning blue. This is getting out of hand—it's an emergency. She needs oxygen. We have to take her to the hospital, now!" C-IN said, looking around desperately for help.
"Let's take her to the school nurse's office first…that may have oxygen," Felix said, running to check. "I will ask for school permission first to leave school," Calix said.
I can't help but close my eyes... I feel drowsy; my eyelids are heavy.
"D...Don't close your eyes, J. Jay...breathe in," C-IN said. While tapping, he looked at Kiefer.
"Do something, KIEFER...she will listen to you," he shouted....
He walked toward me.
I couldn't see him clearly, but I could hear his footsteps getting closer
"I'm here, look at me...hey...hey...don't close your eyes…" Keifer said while lifting me, one hand on my knees and another to help my neck. "Keep breathing...I'm here."
Kiefer," I whispered, clutching the hem of his polo. That was the last word I said... I felt my body weaken. The world was getting darker... The last thing… I heard Kiefer's voice.
"I'm with you…so don't even think about leaving me alone." I could feel his tears falling on my cheek...he's crying.
I don't know how many hours I was unconscious… My body feels like it's not mine… It was heavy to move around; I still feel dizzy. When I opened my eyes... I was in the school nurse's office...my face was covered with an oxygen mask… My vision is getting clear... I saw a nurse standing while holding food.
"When was the last time you had food?" she asked me.
I don't need to lie. because she already knew my condition...Even when I tried to eat, I never felt like it. My body rejected everything.
I only ate because I had to survive. Sometimes, all I had was bread. Last night, I had nothing at all. I don't feel hungry anymore.
"I don't feel like eating, so I had nothing from last night…" I said while avoiding her eyes.
"Have something; your body is so weak...here," she said while giving me lunch boxes. "Have this; I brought you lunch...and after having it, you can have this medicine," she said and put it on the table.
I gave a small smile and nodded slowly after she left… I opened the box…I found porridge and adobo inside.… They were both small, so good when I put a spoonful of adobo in my mouth. tears filled my eyes... It's Eman's cooking... It makes me feel warm. It didn't warm my stomach—it warmed my heart. I had missed eating his food. I'm not going to lie, I miss having them in my life. I
I finished everything.
For the first time in two days, it felt like my body finally accepted the food
But reality hits harder… Because only I thought of them as family. From them, I'm just an enemy sister or a target to get revenge. I rose from the bed and walked towards the classroom.
When I stopped outside, I could hear everyone talking about me.
I wasn't trying to listen, but the words still reached me.
If I saw him again, I knew it would break me even more.
So I quietly turned away and walked to the second floor without making a sound.
I sat in the room—the same room where I had shared food with him for the first time.
Even though I didn't want to, the memories kept coming back, no matter how hard I tried to bury them. His smiles. His affection. His kisses. The way he flirted with me was so effortless.
Tears rolled down my face, and my chest felt unbearably heavy.
My whole life felt like it had been built on lies. The people surrounding me are playing with me like a doll. I was never strong, but I pretended to be strong because I didn't have anyone to protect me... All I have is me... Now, I can't see myself as a person;
The people I love... just betrayed me... What's the point of living a life made up of lies... I put my head towards the wall thinking... if I would find a reason to live, but I don't have one... Maybe it's good if I had died...everyone would be happy with my disappearance?? Maybe I don't have a single person to mourn after I'm dead. Do I have a reason to live??… I want to remove this pain... and forget about him... the way his touch feels... the way he looks at me... the way his kiss feels… everything...
Then I noticed a broken piece of glass on the floor.
For a moment, I stared at it, my fingers trembling as I picked it up. I wanted something—anything—that could drown out the pain inside me.
But no matter how much I hurt, I knew it would never erase what I was carrying in my heart. I cut my hand. It feels painful, but my body is numb to the pain. I carried in my heart... I closed my eyes; all I would remember is him...because he's the only person who taught me how to laugh without faking it. And the person who I thought wouldn't hurt me is now the reason everything hurts...the way he smirks and says, "I have my ways"; everything is easy with him.
I lost in my thoughts when I heard heavy footsteps approaching. Then the door opened. Percy stood there, breathing heavily like he had been running everywhere to find me
"Hey, what are you doing here? Everyone is looking for you, baby sister," he said, walking towards me with a smile. " Don't tell me...did you miss my handsome face?" he said with a smirk.
I smiled and nodded.
"Why are you looking pale??"He asked as he stepped closer.
The moment he saw the blood and the cut on my hand, his expression changed instantly.
"What have you done to yourself??"He asked, covering his mouth in shock. Without wasting another second, he pulled a handkerchief from his back pocket and wrapped it around my hand.
"It doesn't hurt anymore here," I said, pointing to my heart. A tear fell from his eye onto my hand. "You're crying??" "I almost laughed when I said...
"Don't say anything...okay? Kuya will take you to the hospital. Everything will be okay?" he said.
"My handsome kuya...if something happens to me or I die today…don't blame anyone...I thought there would be no one to mourn after I die today. Will you just mourn for me??? I won't be alone at the funeral," I said with a smile.
"Jare...jare...JARE," Percy shouted while lifting me, one hand towards my knees and one hand to my neck. He kicked the door and said it.
Don't you want to meet your twin brother?" he asked softly. "He came to see you. He even brought tons of chocolates for you. Don't you want to eat them? He's been waiting to see you."
"You're not going to die," he said firmly.
As he carried me toward the steps, I noticed everyone from Section E standing nearby.
Then I saw an unfamiliar face. He's asking something to Percy, but I can't hear it well...
"Hey...sis...it's me, your kuya...look at me..." he said softly, tapping my cheek. I really tried to look at him, but my eyes are teary, so I can't see… He looked so worried… Even though it's the first time I've seen him…he looks at me with so much love in his eyes...
"Did she try to cut herself?" Felix said while covering his face...
"Let's take them to the hospital?" David said...
"Did you call the ambulance?" Yuri asked...
"I will drive fast…let's get in the car first???" JARE said while stopping the bleeding.
"B-Blood," C-in said...and came towards me. He checked the wounds on my hands. "The wound isn't deep, but we don't know how long she has been losing blood… Let's take her to the hospital..."
Then I saw Kiefer coming towards me and making his way towards me through the crowd...his lips were cut...his face was bruised...did someone hit him?... Then he said. "Hey...hey...look at me," he said while touching my hand.
Jare pushed his hand and said, "Don't you dare to touch her again," he said...
We reached the school ground. Precy was carrying me while C-IN held my hand tightly to stop the bleeding, and Jare slid into the driver's seat and tried to start the car.
The engine refused to turn over.
He tried again.
Nothing.
He slammed his fist against the dashboard, gripped the steering wheel until his knuckles turned white, and shouted, "God damn it!"..
A loud knock came from the window. Kiefer knocks on the door. I saw Kiefer's worried face... He is signalling to unlock the window. Jare unlocked the door, and he gently took me from Percy's arms and lifted me out of the car as if I weighed nothing... Without saying anything, he took me to his car and put me in the shotgun seat... I was too weak to fight back.
"I'm not letting you die on my watch," he said as he started the engine.
"Kiefer…" I whispered weakly under my breath.
"Are you okay, Jay?" he asked immediately.
"Why are you acting as if you care again?" I asked in a broken voice. "Is this also part of your plan?"
He didn't answer. He only tightened his grip on the steering wheel and drove like we were in the middle of a race.
"Didn't you promise me you'd stay with me?" he said, his voice rough with anger and fear. "Then why… why did you do this to yourself?"
"Jay…" he called softly.
I smiled despite myself. Tears blurred my vision, and one slipped down my cheek.
"Why are you smiling?" he asked, irritation clear in his voice.
"After two days… you finally said my name again," I whispered, my voice trembling. "Even after everything, my name still sounds beautiful when it comes from your lips, and I still like it."
"Jay… I'll say your name a million times if that's what you want," he said, holding my hand tightly.
Then I saw it.
A truck was coming straight toward us.
Without thinking, I threw myself over him, wrapping my arms around his head to protect him.
The truck crashed into us.
The impact wasn't as bad as it could have been because Kiefer managed to turn the wheel at the last second, but my head slammed hard against the dashboard. Pain exploded through me, and the world spun.
We were close to the hospital—close enough.
Kiefer pulled me into his arms and carried me out of the car.
His hands were covered in blood from my head.
I noticed a cut on his forehead, blood running down the side of his face, but he didn't seem to care.
I reached up and touched his cheek.
His skin was damp with sweat, tears, and blood.
Then I kissed him, like it might be the last time.
I poured every feeling I had left into that kiss.
"I never regretted loving you," I whispered.
My body was automatically dragging me to sleep, no matter if I was trying to open my eyes. I could hear Kiefer saying something, but I felt extremely sleepy… But I couldn't feel warmth while he was carrying me.
My vision was blurred... I didn't know what was happening around me anymore…but I heard voices... It took me some time to realise that I was in the soft bed while they were cleaning my wounds... My eyes were dizzy with lights... Everything slowly faded when my body pulled into darkness; the only thing I remember now is Kiefer's worried face... I keep whispering his name.
I didn't know how many times I had gone in and out of surgery or how long I had been unconscious. My head hurt so much, but I couldn't even lift my hand to touch it. But when I opened my eyes, I heard sounds of multiple people's voices...when I opened them... I saw so many unfamiliar faces... Someone reached for my hand.
I pulled away immediately.
"Who are you?" I asked.
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