Jasper:
Us being selfish to the one person we want is our only wish at this point. I'll have you know that we're being selfish in general, not just with her you know. If you want to know our honest opinion on you, we're disappointed in you as a friend. There were times when we needed you and you weren't there for us. We just didn't communicate about it upright because we didn't want conflict. The only person who was there for us the MOST was Liz. We're selfish, yes but so what? That's called self-preservation, do you wish that I was selfless and actually ended up killing myself out of not being able to put myself first?
Liz is our reason for living, it's obsessive sure but tbh she's our special interest in terms of autism wise. There are 8.2 billion people in this world and we want to write a book for one person. We are trying to lean on others, you know, it's just not enough to help us.
What you're telling us is basically like us having to bring in your dead relatives again and tell you to move on. Do you tell someone to move on when they're grieving for someone who has died?
Thank you for always being there for us Emily, we're truly grateful.
We befriended some criminals in the psych ward. One being a former violent criminal and the other straight up admitting that she has killed actual human beings.
The fact that you've never been in jail nor been in a psych ward shows the lack of understanding between us.
It has become so normalized for us that we sometimes wish we could go back into the hospital psych ward again.
Put it this way, let's pretend we're fictional characters. Caleb is a different person from us obviously. I am the one who is fictionally eliminating folks who hurted us hence why I personally think it's justifiable but you don't.
Just letting you know, you've triggered our Suicidal Idealation issues once already and we were sent to the hospital 10 days because of that. I legit grabbed a jump rope and tried to STRANGLE myself. I also tried to cut my own neck with a knife but failed.
Unlike you, we don't express our emotions outwardly because we don't know how but I must say Emily, it does anger me as Jasper that you triggered Caleb to literally try and kill himself.
You're not the only one who got SAed fyi, we've been SAed too. Hell, even in our dreams, we've experienced a person demanding that we owe them sex.
Dante:
I'm sorry but yeah no that's not the same. I don't know what you get from telling me all this but yeah I tried. If you haven't gotten the hint, I'm not your friend anymore. If you're befriending criminals who've killed me, I'm not gonna continue being your friend. I don't need to understand you on why your actions are justifiable bc in the end they are not. ive moved on from those who are long gone and you need to do the same for Liz. I'm sorry that I triggered you to end up in the hospital but I cannot just standby as you get obsessive over Liz where I feel that she is no longer safe online and in person. Jasper or Caleb or whoever I don't care anymore I dont care how you feel towards me after all this because it really is the end.
[Real Life Conflict Event between Dante and the Xhao Zuozhe company recording has ended]
"I don't know what you get from telling me all this" the point that I was trying to get was to explain my life to you and how harsh it was. It was also to explain that I have been selfless and always will be by constantly putting others first before me. It used to be you included too but now I guess not. I will have to disregard my care for you from now on.
It's not justifiable? Then what about the suffering I have had to deal with? Where is the justice in the suffering that I have had to experience? I may not be mentally stable but I can at least hold a job.
I landed myself in Group #3 in the Gooden Center for the outpatient program and I have to say, I like this program! The group was talking about what brings each of us joy. I saw each of the group members doing their own things which included: sewing, coloring, and drawing. Apparently I met a chronic liar which was the reason why this guy was in this program. He says he was envious of me because I was a chronic honesty type of guy.
The group was nice. The liar guy told me that he went through a divorce and was basically an addict. He sounded like he had lost a lot of things and was vulnerable with me. Poor guy, I hope he gets better soon. I learned that his name was Tony.
"I couldn't forget Goo Seonah's shocked face when she saw me eating the 'Kim Dokja fragment'. After that, I never met Goo Seonah." This was a passage written in the ORV Sequel. I personally think that Goo Seonah saw Lee Hakhyun as terrifying for eating the Kim Dokja fragment. That's why Goo Seonah avoided Lee Hakhyun.
[Fragment of ORV: The Sequel:
"Do you have a family?"
"I have my parents."
For the first time in a while, I remembered my parents' faces. Parents who remind me of a gentle spring night.
"I'm jealous. I don't have one."
I stood there in silence for a moment, not knowing what to say.
In times like this, should I comfort him or ask him something more?"]
I think Lee Hakhyun should have comforted him, that's what I would do if I was him. "I'm sorry to hear that Ye Hyunwoo" is what I would say to comfort Hyunwoo. That was my personal choice if I was in the story but alas, the fourth wall blocks me from comforting Ye Hyunwoo.
Personally, I had family members as well but they emotionally neglected and abused me. As a result, I learned to not be able to take a break nor be able to get the love I needed growing up. It turned me mentally unstable and in a very vulnerable state where people stabbed and burned me alive. I'm so jealous of people who got the love that they needed growing up. I'm jealous of couples where the attraction is mutual. Why….why can't that be me?
No wonder I turned violent after Lizmarie rejected me in a friendly manner. It didn't matter how it was done, what mattered was the final result. Is it a rejection or not? Why did she even ghost me and cause me so much anxiety? Did she even know that I was doing that which was why I went insane?
How many times was Caleb Zuozhe taken advantage of Ni Tian Joonghyuk questioned in an enraged manner. Why did Caleb Zuozhe naturally give a $20 bill to the guy who was giving free books and running a charity? Even Caleb Zuozhe himself questioned why he was so naturally giving.
I love you so fucking much, it brings me to tears, Khaleesi. Caleb cries as he reads through his messages with her. To Caleb, Khaleesi was the Angelic Queen of Salvation. If Lizmarie means to be loved by God, then I'll become a God just so I can love you and fulfill that prophecy of what your name means, Lizmarie. During my friendship with her, when we reunited for the first time, I think I lied to myself, telling myself I had moved on. The truth was, I was wondering from time to time whether I still had feelings for her.
I looked up what harassment meant, and it stated that it covers a wide range of offensive tactics. I was simply doing what I felt was necessary after being attacked first. I feel things pretty intensely, so of course I'll give back just as intensely so others can feel what I can feel. I've been called rude or blunt a lot in my life, but to be called a harasser is on a whole other level of insanity.
Caleb Zuozhe wonders if he could ever heal from his codependency and if his wish to see Lizmarie once more could become true one day. The last thing that Caleb wanted was to be left behind by Lizmarie. He knew what kind of pain he would be in if she left. Yet she did anyways and Caleb was stuck with this wound.
"I miss you, I miss you so much god damn it!" Caleb Zuozhe cried desperately knowing there was nothing he could do but yearn for Lizmarie and pray they met again. He wanted her to unblock him and reach out to him but that was an impossible wish. He prayed to his God, "God please let me meet Lizmarie in this lifetime once more, I don't know what to do without her!"
Lizmarie was there for Caleb when he was mentally broken. There was absolutely no one else there besides him besides Lizmarie. Lizmarie was very supportive of him and stated "I will always be here for you". In Caleb's 18 years of living, he had never once heard that in his life. "Lizmarie, what do you do when you're in pain or missing someone that you can't move on from?" He asked her because that was exactly what he was feeling. He ended up finding his own answer by writing an entire novel just for her.
Alright let's judge Dante here for a while, she does not care about what happens to someone in Jury Duty and only cares about her job. She decided on a person's fate by having instagram randomly decide it. How could Dante do that to that random person? Let's all do that to Dante instead due to the poor person. Is Dante guilty or not guilty for her selfish actions on disregarding the random citizen's fate. The citizen could have been framed for all Dante knows and she just allowed it to happen. She just says she doesn't care but how the hell could she not care? Doesn't she have human basic empathy?
She is an incredibly selfish, unempathetic, disappointing, unkind liar who puts up a mask and shows inauthenticity. Mind you, just like me, she also has autism but I guess she has the 'I don't give a shit' autism and I have the 'I give too much shits' autism. Know your place, you mere mortal for a Demon King is speaking.
87% of this world will experience hell while 13% of this world will experience heaven when the ruined worlds come. This is America, the land of the free. I truly wonder…what will happen to me as an American author? I see Chinese authors being in jail and Korean authors being hospitalized. Japanese authors gamble on which one they receive. I get hospitalized myself but I also gamble on being jailed eventually by releasing this.
[Dante Arellano has failed to understand the Demon King of Liberation's viewpoint]
[The Demon King of Liberation shatters the heavens to prevent Dante Arellano from reaching Heaven whenever she dies in this life time]
Good luck with reaching Heaven when I basically shattered it, Dante. I'll see you in hell or on Earth where we will meet again once more.
The Demon King of Liberation has stopped regressing. "Hm, I expected to regress more but I guess I will stop doing so here."