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Chapter 3 - Everything I Don't Have

Ruan Cheng POV

He told himself it was just the rooftop.

Just two people who happened to share a building and a view and a habit of being somewhere they could breathe. That was all. He told himself this on the second night, when she showed up with two cups instead of one. He told himself this on the seventh night, when she laughed at something he said, and he lost his train of thought completely. He told himself this on the fourteenth night, when she wasn't there, and he stayed up on the water tank for an extra hour waiting without admitting he was waiting.

He stopped telling himself anything after that.

Two months in.

She found him on a Wednesday afternoon in the small noodle shop two streets from his building. He was at a corner table with his laptop, running a market model he had been building in his spare hours, a risk exposure tracker for mid-size firms, the kind of tool that would have been useful at his old job and that nobody there had bothered to build.

She slid into the seat across from him without asking and looked at his screen.

"What is that?"

"A model. Tracks where a company is actually vulnerable versus where it thinks it's vulnerable. The gap between those two things is where most firms bleed out without knowing why."

She studied the screen for a long moment. He watched her eyes move methodically, left to right, processing. Most people looked at his models and saw a wall of numbers. She looked at it like she was reading a story.

"The gap gets bigger during expansion," she said. "When companies grow fast, they stop checking the foundation."

He stared at her. "Yes. Exactly."

She looked up. Something careful passed through her expression, as if she had said slightly more than she meant to. Then she reached over, stole a dumpling from his plate, and said: "Teach me how to read the charts."

So, he did.

He taught her over three sessions at that corner table, explaining the shapes' heads and shoulders, double bottoms, and the slow creep of a trend reversal. She learned fast. Faster than people who had been studying finance for years. She asked questions that went straight to the center of things, no detours. She never asked what something was called. She always asked why it worked.

He thought about that a lot. Why it worked. Not what it was.

He didn't ask where she learned to think like that.

She didn't ask how he knew so much for someone who had just been fired.

They had an agreement, unspoken from the first night. No background. No family. No last names. Just this: the table, the screen, the city, the rooftop.

Three months in.

She brought a small cloth bag to the rooftop one night with four different teas inside, loose leaf, each one in a separate paper envelope. No labels.

"Close your eyes," she said.

He gave her a look.

"Close them."

He closed them. She opened the first envelope and held it under his nose. He smelled something green and slightly bitter and grassy.

"I have no idea," he said.

"Longjing. Dragon well. Try again, what does it remind you of?"

He thought. "Rain on concrete. Early morning."

She made a small sound that meant he was not completely wrong. She opened the second envelope. Something warmer. Roasted.

"This one smells like a decision," he said.

She burst out laughing. "A decision."

"Like something that's already been made. Settled."

"It's aged oolong," she said, still laughing. "But I'll tell the farmers you said it smells like a decision. I'm sure they'll be honored."

He opened his eyes. She was holding the envelope and laughing in the way she had started to laugh around him unguarded, a little helpless, as it caught her off guard every time. Like she was still getting used to it.

He made himself look away before she noticed him looking.

He was falling, and he knew it, and he had decided to just let it happen because stopping it felt like a worse idea than anything that could go wrong.

Four months in.

He noticed she never mentioned her family.

Not once. Not a mother, a father, a sibling, a cousin. Not a childhood story that included anyone else. She talked about books she'd read and cities she wanted to visit and what she would do if she ran a company, actually ran it, not just sat at the head of a table, and she talked about tea and the way certain markets moved like weather systems and the specific type of exhaustion that came from performing a version of yourself all day.

But no family.

He had mentioned his mother several times. She always listened carefully when he did, asked small, specific questions about whether she was eating, whether the new medication helped, and whether she had someone to sit with her during treatment. She remembered every detail he gave her. But she gave him nothing in return from her own life before the rooftop.

He didn't push. He had the feeling, strong and clear, that whatever was on the other side of that door was something she was protecting. Not from him specifically. Just protecting, the way you protect the one thing that's still yours.

He understood that.

He had things like that, too.

Five months in.

They were walking back from a late-night street food market, with a skewer, a bag of scallion pancakes, and two cans of cold tea, when she stopped in the middle of the bridge and looked down at the river.

"If you could build anything," she said. "Not for money. Not to prove something. Just because it should exist, what would it be?"

He thought about it seriously, the way she always expected him to.

"A system that shows people the real cost of financial decisions before they make them. Not the projected return. The actual human cost jobs, communities, the stuff that doesn't show up on a balance sheet but ends up in a headline two years later. Make it visible. Make it impossible to ignore."

She was quiet.

"You're going to build that," she said. Not like a question.

"I don't have the capital. Or the infrastructure. Or "

"You're going to build that," she said again. Same tone. Certain.

He looked at her. She was still watching the river, and she had the expression she sometimes got, like she was looking at something from a distance that he was standing too close to see.

He didn't argue.

He thought about it the whole way home.

Six months.

He had been doing freelance financial modeling for three months for small firms, independent contractors, anyone who needed the work done, and didn't care about his former employer's blacklist because they'd never heard of his former employer. He was underpaid, and he was good, and he was saving every extra cent with a specific purpose he hadn't told anyone.

He went to the jeweler on a Tuesday. He spent forty minutes looking at rings and feeling completely out of his depth. He told the jeweler his budget. She didn't make him feel small about it. She showed him something simple, a thin band, one stone, clean and honest. Nothing that tried too hard.

He bought it.

He carried the velvet box in his jacket pocket for eleven days. Every time he saw her, he thought about it and then thought about everything he didn't have: no job title, no family name, no apartment that was fully his, no certainty about what came next, and he put it off.

On the twelfth day, he stopped putting it off.

He got to the rooftop first. He had brought nothing, no food, no coffee, just himself and the box in his pocket and the city spread out below.

She arrived twelve minutes later and climbed the water tank and sat beside him and looked at the skyline and said, "You're quiet tonight."

"I'm thinking."

"You're always thinking."

"I'm thinking about something specific tonight."

She looked at him. He looked back at her. Six months of rooftops and corner tables and tea lessons and her stealing his dumplings and both of them being more honest up here than anywhere else in their lives.

He reached into his jacket pocket.

He got down on one knee on top of the water tank, which was slightly ridiculous, and he didn't care at all.

He held the box open.

The ring caught the city light. Small. Simple. Real.

"I don't have anything," he said. "I want to be clear about that. No title, no connections, no plan that's guaranteed to work. I have a pen I took from a boardroom and a model I'm building on a borrowed laptop and a mother who is rooting for me from a hospital bed." He looked at her directly. "But I want everything with you. Whatever everything turns out to be. I want it with you."

She had gone completely still.

Her eyes were bright, and he watched the careful thing she always kept in place that surface, that protection come down completely. All the way down. For the first time.

"Yes," she said. Her voice broke on it. Just slightly.

He slid the ring on her finger. Her hand was shaking a little. He was, too.

She put her other hand over his and held on.

They stayed like that for a long moment, on top of a water tank above a city that didn't know they existed, and it was the most real thing Ruan Cheng had ever been part of in his life.

Neither of them saw the shadow on the building across the street.

Neither of them heard the soft mechanical click of a shutter.

A long-range lens. A patient man. A client who had been waiting six months for exactly this moment.

The photograph was sent before the ring had warmed on her finger.

Across the city, a phone lit up. A man looked at the image. He set his drink down slowly.

By morning, every newspaper in the city would know her name.

And his.

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