"Summer vacation is on the verge of ending. I don't want to go to school, i want to go with you and help you with the plaaaneeeessss"
"Lu, if you don't go to school, i won't allow you to come anymore with me"
"Daaad, it's not fair. First day nobody does anything, it's a day made for skipping"
"No buts, you should go and make some friends from your class."
"But i still got my old friends and all"
"And you are in different classes. Go and make some friends from your class already"
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'this is where i sit this year?' i press the desk gently with my fingers before i sit down. It had a hole all the way though, maybe i could fit a whole finger in there without getting stuck.
"My name is Fiona.-..."
'Repeating? She's got a nice figure...but it's clear she is an introvert' i look at her and before i realized it, it was my turn. The guy in front of me tapped my desk and i almost fallen off my seat, then i finally got up.
"I'm Lu, nice to meet you." And sat down. Their attention was on me for just a moment before they moved on and i continued my personal stalking session.
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Break. 'Dad said to make some friends so i might as well do it.' i got up and walked towards her. 'her name is Fiona and she had health issues, i guess i could ask her about her hobbies. I'll probably be manga and anime anyways'
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'she thinks I'm a dude.' i sat in my desk, contemplating. 'ahhh, i told her about the plane models too. I need to fix that misunderstanding fast...'
"Hey, about last break-"
"Hmm? Ah, here, we should exchange contacts" she held out her phone and i lost my chance.
Lunch break
"Hey, about today-"
"Sorry, did i do something bad?"
"N-no." Again.
"Hey-"
"What's up?"
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'It didn't work. The whole week passed and i wasn't able to clear it. What am i supposed to do? At this rate i fear she might see me in a weird light. Don't want that...but it's such a bother to find a good timing'
"Lu. LU! The hammer!"
"Huh? Sorry, here-..."
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"Toilets here are refreshing compared to the school ones...they aren't filled with the other gender and they don't stink. Hmm? Someone entered?" I peek out and see Fiona washing her hands. I panic and close back the door.
"Lu?"
"No?...yes?..."
'why? Why is she here this moment of all?!' as i panic a though crossed my mind again, canceling out my reasoning to stay hidden 'doesn't this mean i can finally clean the misunderstanding?'
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'huh? Did she just confessed? Wait, wait, she might have been just joking, she must still be thinking I'm a guy...is that the case?'..."You...like me?" 'what the heck, she nodded?'
..."why?"
Why? Because i do?" 'what's with that answer? Is she making fun of me?'
"Why?"
"Hold on, what do you mean why?"
"Why do you like me?" 'just tell me already, stop leaving me in the dark, don't just say something so casual then back it up with a small excuse'...'why are you crying? I was the one getting confessed, make ME shed a tear of happiness!'
"Why? I mean... you're...you..." 'tell me! make me feel special if you want me! let me be greedy about my first relationship!'
"You didn't answer"
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"I couldn't. I don't want to lose a friend over something like this."
"Don't give me that crap! You just confessed and said you don't want to lose a friend over it? Am i a joke to you?" 'stop body! you already got what you wanted, i can't be more greedy i'm at my limit too, please, just...someone stop me!'
"Would have i thought of you as a joke if i were to hang out with you?! Don't you dare think so low of yourself! You're way cooler, way smarter and way more sociable than me, I'm blessed just talking to you!" 'looking down on myself?!... even now you are flattering me. Idiotic girl. You said all of those things about me, yet, you don't really know me...if you would, you wouldn't see me like that.'
"Then let's redo it, the confession" 'Even if i want to cry, slap myself...i can't let go of my greed. I don't want to live the same life with you if i can't even control my greed.'
"L-Lu, i like you, w-will you be...my girl... friend?" 'that's enough...even i can't absorb all your light. I'm just a fly looking at a lamp'
"Stupid, Idiot, sack of potatoes. You just had to say it that way from the start" 'just stop me...i might actually ruin everything this way...lock me somewhere far away...please...'
"then...I hope you won't get bored with me" 'I'm going to burn at this rate, I can't keep up this facade...but...if...just if...'
"a photo." I took out my phone "To celebrate our relationship"
"don't. I look so ugly right now..."
"There's no no allowed." 'really, I am such an idiot, a wannabe plane engineer who is so greedy. I can't believe myself' I press the button, smiling like an idiot, really, I'm such an idiot.
"not fair-...at least send it to me too"
"alright, alright."