So, the day of exam came,
I had not study anything,
Few of my classmates asked me "How much have you studied?"
"A little bit," I replied,
I saw a group of girls discussing before exams and there I saw a girl whom I believe is most beautiful in our class,
I looked at her, her glasses, her hairs and Her clothes looked so beautiful,
I could look at her all day but I also looked at all the other girls in my class whom I deem beautiful,
These girls have great sense of fashion,
They all looked so beautiful and enchanting,
I wanted to go and talk with them but I will not,
Oh, and I have no crush or love for them,
There in no thing such as noble love in my gaze,
To be honest I just want to fuck them hard,
Just thinking about If I was allowed, I would fuck them in all the styles I know,
So, you see, I have never a felt a sense of love from any girls I have met,
Never in my mind have I thought after seeing an attractive girl from my perspective that,
Yes, this is the girl, I will spend my whole life with,
No, I have only thought of fucking them in different ways,
So, I was only lustful towards all the girls I have ever met,
I never understood romance novels, shows or dramas,
The couple in movies and shows I have seen,
Are ready to die for each other,
But I have never even imagined about dying for another person,
No matter who that person is, If I have to choose, I will always choose myself,
"Shishir, so you are here," one of my classmates called out,
"Yes, what do you want?" I replied,
The person who called me out was holding his note copy and roaming around learning concepts of exam that was about to start in 15 minutes,
"Shishir, do you know what is integral of arcsine(x) whole squared?"
"No, I don't, is it done by doing integration by parts or something?"
"Yeah, but it sometimes gets complicated and how is your preparation for exams."
"I have not studied anything, Happy" I said,
And he left,
Motherfucker, why can't he just study?
Why is he roaming around asking same question to every person he meets,
As times passed my nervous increased, If I failed, I would have to pay for re-exam,
No, I have no money to spare this month,
Oh god I should have studied,
Please God let paper be from something I have studied from,
I felt immense guilt now that exam was minutes away from being starting,
If I only I had studied.
Shit,
Man, I hate this,
WHy I have to give exams,
As the room for exam hall opened, we all entered and sat on our assigned position and were handed over exam sheet with exam questions,
As the teacher entered and he sat on his chair,
'Dong'
"Your time starts now." The teacher said,
I took the question paper and started reading it,
As I kept on scanning paper,
The color of my face started turning white,
Ahahhaa,
Not one fucking question came from the topics I studied, Hahahahaa
I looked around everyone had started writing,
But I just acted as if I was writing hiding my exam sheet with another hand,
I was so nervous,
No, I don't want to be here,
No,
I could have cried right there but I didn't,
I looked at question again and again but the question remained the same,
As the god were mocking that no matter how many times I look,
I won't get the different questions,
As the teacher started coming toward me,
I got nervous and my heart started jumping around like wild animal,
He came near me and started staring at me,
He looked at me and smiled and said "Write son, we got very less time,"
My eyes were red if not for my long hair, The teacher would have seen my eyes filled with tears,
As if tears were just waiting for my permission and they will start flowing like water fall,
I didn't do anything,
The teacher smirked and left as if mocking me,
I really couldn't solve any of the questions,
What should I do?
Should I just go home?
No, everyone is writing what will they think If I left now,
No, I am afraid,
I don't want to leave now,
"Teacher, Extra Sheet!!"
One of my classmate cried out, I looked at him with envy,
I have not written a word and someone guy is already asking for extra sheet,
Oh, God, why am I even here?
Sniff,
No, I won't cry,
I can't cry,
I blocked my teary eyes with my hand,
No, I will never cry,
Hufff,
Huff,
I took out a handkerchief from my pocket and started cleaning my face and eyes,
As time kept flowing, I got more nervous and afraid,
I just want to pass and nothing more,
SHould I copy from that guy next to me?
SO,
Now, I was trying to copy from my nearby classmates,
When he saw that,
He cried out "Teacher!!"
Noooooo!!! Don't do that I just looked at you,