WE believe we love others but that is a falsehood, it is like a reflection of moon on the water.
Today I have realized I do not love others but I love myself.
And I only love myself.
I want to be happy so I only stay with those who give me happiness and I seek that happiness for myself.
And live foolishly thinking I love them,
I seek that happiness because I love myself not them.
Then there might arise a question,
Why would some people give their life for others if they didn't even loved that other person?
The reason is simple because they are so dependent on that person for happiness that they can't think of other thing that can give them happiness,
It is similiar to why one commits suicide,
We do not stay with those that cannot give us happiness.
And I have also got the answer as to why my brother committed suicide because he loved himself so much that he thought killing himself will relieve him from all the hatred, pain and sadness that this world gave him.
So the reason my brother died was because of love not others love.
But his love toward himself.
And it is also the same for me.
But I am not like my brother or more so I am no longer like himself.
So I no longer wish to die.
I Shishir will change myself and find my happiness by myself.
I will not find people who will give me happiness but I will create that happiness for me myself.
I will be like that self illuminating sun.
I will find happiness by myself.
What others people do know is that the moon in the pond is just the reflection but what they dont know is that the real moon itself is the reflection of that Eternal Blazing Sun.