Nayza was heading from library people around her laughing and chatting with their friends. Some were playing in the park and some sipping coffee at a cafe...Nayza just kept walking alone.
She took a deep breath, smiled a bit " GETTING ATTACHED TO PEOPLE JUST HURTS ME, I'M BETTER OFF ALONE." she told herself.
The apartment was pitch black, except for the Faint Glow from the window, casting eerie shadows. The silence was deafening. Sudenly her phone buzzed⸻ a massage form mom : don't forget to eat dinner .
She looked at the message and said "I LOVE YOU MUM " then, she flopped onto bed. It was almost 8 pm. she thought of ordering food but she was running low on cash . With a tired face , she went to the kitchen — a packet of noodles was there. she cooked it and started eating while playing mobile game in her room .
sudenly something fell with a crash ,like someone broke something. Nayza's focus shifted from the game." what happened?" she said.
She put down the noodles bowl , got up cautiously and headed to the door .the flat was small , the sound come from nearby ...the balcony ?
She thought —huh?what could it be ?What is it ?
Nayza went to the balcony and checked, saw the broken vase and her eyes widened.
but then she noticed something — a huge bouquet of fresh flowers neatly arranged next to the broken pieces . her eyes locked onto the bouquet, it was a mix of her favorite flowers — tulips and lillies . A chill ran down her spine .
Suddenly she felt a presence behind her ....
Nayza quickly turned around, but there was no one there. The balcony was empty, the night breeze blowing through the silence.
She shook her head ,thinking maybe she's just being paranoid.....
But then her eyes landed on the card attached to the bouquet. She read it ,and her face went Pale. She looked shocked, confused and her body was shaking..
Her mind is racing, and she's still in frozen in confusion,
Nayza kept the bouquet on her bed, but the room was still dark, lying on bed looking at the card, something clicked, and she suddenly remembering, she says :- there's only one person who knows about me ,it's been 2 years since we've spoken....but how did he leave me ? Was it an accident?. How and why ? It can't be him, right?...
:-Lost in thought.
Nayza's mind is stuck on rewind, replaying old memories, the what-ifs and why's are swirling, and she's trapped in the past .
"Revisiting some tough memories "
She says to herself, "I still remember when I lived with my family before I move out . I longed for someone to love me , for dad to notice me , for friends who'd ask , " hey nayza ,how are you ? Is everything okay ? " but no one was like that no one cared if I ate or not. When I was sick , no one asked ..... it was like I didn't exist in that house. Then I stopped caring for myself, stopped eating, stopped talking to anyone. I just lay in my room all day like I was in depression. Iwas stressed about my studies, about finishing graduation, because my father wasn't talking to me and he doesn't ask even once about my studies. My 3 year got wasted....my health was deteriorating. I just cried every day. Meanwhile, my school friends were completing their studies, hanging out ,celebrating their birthdays .they don't even asked me for hangout with them , but I was stuck in that room ,crying, longing for someone to ask about me ."
⸻ she says through tears, " what's it like to have positivity around you ? To have a friend, someone who cares, a dad who loves you like daughter.... what's that like ? Will I ever get all that ."
Her heart ached for love and validation something she'd missed out on since childhood. She just wanted someone, anyone, to put their arms around her and say " no matter what ,I'm always with you ".
But then, I found happiness in my solitude and started enjoying being alone. Whether someone talked to me or not ... I stopped letting it affect me.I just started living with a tired face.
Few month later, my family gave me an old phone that barely worked
To distract myself from offline life, I started playing online games, I met people there ,played games ... some were nice , some were rude. but I didn't make friends , they'd have someone else, I was just there to play the game .
One day , a girl sent me a friend request on the game . Her name was Alisha . We talked a bit , got to know each other. it was just 3 or 4 days of talking, then she stopped coming online. A day went by and then she came online, and someone massaged me saying " he's her brother". ⸻He said " she won't come online again, she's quit the game because she's getting engaged. And now I'll play from her I'd... Alisha had told me to let you know ".
I said "okay " , now how do I talk to her ? So her brother said,⸻" take my number, if you need to ask anything about her I'll tell you , then I said " okay " letter, when I was free, I talked to him about Alisha... He told me that ,"she's getting married and has an engagement coming up in a few days, so she won't be using her phone anymore.
I wasn't interested in her brother. I just wanted to stay in touch with Alisha. So, I asked her brother for Alisha's picture. He said, he'd give it to me when he's free , I said "okay" the next day , I asked for Alisha's picture again , he said let me check.
It took him a long time to find Alisha's picture. I was getting angry at him, I felt like he was intentionally messing with me. Then, After a few hours,he sent Alisha's picture and when I saw her, I was just stuck , staring at her. She was super beautiful. I was thinking, wow, these two siblings are SO gorgeous, ( I saw him on his profile picture)
I told her brother " Alisha is so so pretty and he said " yeah I know, now can I see yours?" I was thinking "how do I give it , I'm not that beautiful... I asked for hers so I should give mine in return " right? .. so, I sent him a picture of mine, my long black hair was open , wearing an oversized tshirt with a smile on my face. When he saw the picture, he said — you're really pretty girl I've ever seen. I thought he was just saying that , I know I'm not beautiful. So I just said " hmm " and started asking about Alisha again. That's how we slowly started getting closer, playing games together. Then one day we had a fight because of a guy who's my brother. I met him on the game. My brother don't like Alisha's brother and Alisha's brother too, my game bro started treating him rudely, one day he get pissed off, He told me "you'll have to choose between your brother and me ".
He didn't care about me at all, it was all about his ego. He could've fixed everything, made up with my bro.... but he chose his pride over our friendship.
Then I chose my brother without any hesitation and stopped talking to him. he also stopped.
I knew things things don't just stop like that in my life, so I didn't have high expectations from our friendship and after that I started playing game alone and sometimes with the brother I met on the game ... and maybe after two months, I deleted the game.
I was living my life alone and I was happy, focusing on my studies (yes my father started talking to me) I was feeling good about it.
Then, after a few months, Alisha's brother text me and said - "are you alive "? I said- "aren't I"? Then he apologized for everything, for leaving me, and said -" he won't go anywhere now or ever again, trust me, accept me please nayza..I've really missed you ".
"Wait w...whattt?? Why am I remembering him, I don't want to remember him ever. I..I...don't want.
Nayza's eye clouded with a mix of sadness as she wishperd " thus can't be Alisha's brother, it's someone else, I have to find out who it is ".
No one in real life knows my gaming nickname, it's definitely someone from the game who wrote my gaming nickname on the card.
Nayza's burried her face in the pillow, memories flouding her mind as she drifted off to sleep. Balcony was open, letting the night breeze whisper secrets to her as she slept.
And then A guy enters from the balcony and saw nayza looks super hot while sleeping, her back view is on fire, the guy's loses himself looking at her and says-" she's the one I'm living for ". Then he covers her with a blanket and goes back.