Till then,the life was something anonymous and I was the kind of person who thinks that she can although twist her destiny, since destiny has no right to intrupt my life...
In short,I wasn't a destiny beleiver because for me , it was always been and always will be me who writes my destiny - not destiny itself (strange naa..)
Time fliess....
There come an exam day, the day uhhh...
#NTA SCAM with highly intense questions and as obvious, I didn't get select. While coming home after giving that exam there was a depressed cry of not getting it. The grief was not about how my exam has been, it was actually the struggle - the sacrifice - I hadd...Those none stopable consistent hours study approx 20 hours a day whyyyy...
Then again , timee flies..
There were 3 months of grief after that exam ... But due to curse I have asked to give an another exam, which I don't want to.. as I know, I want be able to clear that too..
The day come, I gave an exam and you can't beleive it turned out to be better than I had thought and after that day there was litter glimpse of happiness you can say in me...
Then again approx about 3 more months i waited for result and has been selected in that exam - in clear words I would say that I cleared that exam ( touchwood).
Slowlyy and slowwlyy...things got better and I joined my university...and that was a phase changer for me since before I wasn't able to get it out from my that dream of becoming a ..... Uhh..
During that time , i somehow managed to be there in a different course and you know what , it wasn't that difficult to pursue.. also I get a silent seizure of that exam to give it again and I anonymously start preparing for that again. This happens for multiple times but I somehow managed to not get it again.
And and andd.. you know, I...today is totally OUT of it.
"It made my realize that destiny does exist in some way. Earlier I never truly believed in it until I went through all of this myself. But now I reached a point where I accept that life is not entirely in our control.Somewhere it all depends on destiny and the will of almighty God.No matter how much we plan or try, there are things that are simply meant to happen and we learn to trust that higher power"
Today, I am living my life peacefully as there is no peer pressure oor any stuff like that. Something the degree that I am currently pursuing,also get tougher but I somewhere beleive that I can easily manage that in my own way.
There are exams, presentation and yaahh!! One thing that should be talked out is my low confidence which is now turned into a good confidence justt because of my mindcontrol will or you say my thinking and ofcourse due to those presentation and interactions with my professors.. Att all it really turned out to be a much better than I everrr thought.
Butt at the end the calm women was finally turned out to be a short tempered women...how? -- why?... there is a lot behind this.