Hey, hey, Kid!
Hey to you all as well, Folks!
I hope that you all have been happy and healthy so far this year!
Me?
Lego.
Lots and lots of Lego!
Lol.
It just does something soothing and powerful to my mind to be able to sit and tinker for a couple of hours, you know?
It helps me detach from the world and reality for a bit, and that means the world to me since my brain is a perpetual motion machine, lol.
Find something to distract your mind from all of the heavy things in this world, Folks, or life will roll you over before you know it.
You as well, Kid.
Find and keep a good hobby, and you will stay happy and out of trouble.
I will let you all get to what you came for, lol.
I love and appreciate you all for coming back week after week.
It means the world to me, and I hope that I can continue to keep you all pleased and entertained, you know? Lol.
Your perpetual silence makes you a bit of a tough crowd!
Send your old man a chuckle, would ya?
An "lol" or something!
LMAO.
It's all good, we will have our fun regardless!
See you back here soon enough, yeah?
Enjoy!
(Activates the several dozen switches and buttons that power this weird machine of mine before it zaps me back to a point in time that I don't really care to linger in!)
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April 25th, 2022.
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Dear You.
Six days.
Six days till I move out.
Start over.
Myself and XXXXX are done.
At least for now.
Maybe for good.
I did all I could, and got so little back that... Well, here we are.
Six days.
Just six days left.
It all crumbled so fast.
I needed to get out.
Step 1: Get away from that relationship. Get out of it...
Step 2: Move. Settle. Build.
I need me.
Myself.
Now more than ever...
-Dad.
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(Splorps back into 2026 with a strange-yet-comforting 2024 feeling...Hmmm.)
Oi.
Six days is nothing.
Just shy of a week.
It went by so, so, so, so slowly.
Way too slow.
Sleeping in that house with her was so hard.
It was so hard because I still loved her beyond reason.
I had spent the last almost nine years with her, and it would all be over in just under a week.
What a twist!
I was hurting so bad on the inside, but she was nearly emotionless, so I did my best to mask what I was feeling around her.
She didn't care enough to make any real efforts to get me to stay, and you know what?
I wouldn't have stayed even had she tried...
I was done for good, and I knew I was never going to go back.
I told myself after the first time we broke up that I would never go back to her, and I meant that.
It has been just under four years, and although it took me nearly three years to heal, I am much better off than I was immediately after I left her and moved out.
I was very torn and broken.
Low.
Lonely.
Being displaced into a new and foreign environment was extremely hard for me.
It was my first time living on my own, and in an apartment complex, at that.
It took me almost the full first year to get comfortable and fully unpack my things.
After I left her, she followed me to my new place...
I know.
I know.
I should have just blocked her number and social media accounts.
I should have.
But I still loved her, even though I was no longer in love with her, and despite everything she had put me through, and that I let myself be subjected to.
It took me almost two additional years to finally cut her off for good, and that was not easy.
Some small part of me wanted to see the "good" in her, but I assure you, there was none, if not very little...
She was and is not a kind or good person.
I say that even now, with a heavy heart, because I thought that I had seen a beautiful spark within her.
It was manipulation and deception is all.
I know and see that fully now.
Be careful, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
If you have a good, kind heart, it will do little for you but make you a target for the wrong people.
Take care to keep an eye out for people who only want you for what you have and/or what you can do for them.
I will leave you all at that, and I hope to see you back here soon!
I love and appreciate all of you, as always!
Safe travels, Kid.
You all as well, Folks.
I will see you all sometime next week, yeah?
Keep your heads up!
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.