Hey, hey, Kid!
Hello there, Folks!
I hope that life has been treating you all well!
Life has been okay for me, a bit of loneliness comes and goes, but that is nothing that I can't handle, you know?
That is one of the side effects of being single: we are alone all the time, and we have to learn to live with that.
I have always felt that I was not enough.
Never enough.
That I was meant to be a really good friend, and be the man that women love to hang out with, but not marry.
I am a perpetual friend, it seems.
A part of me doesn't mind that.
The other part wonders why?
Why does love seem to evade me?
Hmm.
I try not to think about it too much, too often.
It will only rattle my core without a solution, and that will do no one any good.
I hope that all of you are having much better luck in love than I am, lol.
As for you, Kid?
Well...
You can't come to be if I never met your mother, right?
Hmm, and hmm again.
I will see you all back here soon enough, yeah?
Enjoy!
(Turns on my lovely, loyal time machine, wondering just a bit why I keep returning to 2026 when given a choice.)
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April 29th, 2022.
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Dear You.
Good afternoon, Kid.
I hope you have been well.
Less than three days from now, I will be out and on my own.
It is new and scary, and I need this.
I hate that it all came to this...
This situation.
But alas...
Everything happens for a reason.
EVERYTHING.
Remember that.
-Dad.
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(Splorps back into 2026, relieved that I was not forced to relive 2022 again!)
Hmm.
I would be leaving her soon.
The one whom I thought was the "Love of my life."
The one whom I had done anything and everything for.
The woman whom I thought I would spend the rest of my life with.
It was a devastating blow to my life.
My goals.
My dreams.
It was the end of everything and the start of nothing.
Who was I?
I had been with her for almost nine years, and "we" had become just that: "we" regardless of what that entailed.
It was what I was for as long as I could remember, and resetting my mental and emotional core was something that took me over two years to do after I had left.
A part of that extended amount of time was because even after I left, I still communicated and interacted with her instead of truly cutting her out like a tumor, and fully moving on.
I was lost and damaged.
I still had no real sense of self-respect or boundaries, and she took full advantage of that and me.
Just as he had for the past 8.5 years before I gained the courage to leave her.
I can't fully blame her, as I let her come around.
I still loved her so deeply that it was hard to turn her down.
I was also still quite trapped under her manipulations and machinations.
Bah.
Beware, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
Some people have no conscience.
No care.
No empathy.
They will use and use and use and use until you cut them out of your life.
Like a tumor.
I will leave you all at that, and I will see you soon, yeah?
You mean the world to me...
All of you.
Even YOU, Kid, although you have yet to be born.
Maybe someday you will read this long after I have passed away, and that is just as well as never, lol.
I hope to have and hold you someday.
I will try to keep my hope up till then, yeah?
You just take your time finding your way to me from the stars.
I will do my best to be here when you arrive.
See you next time, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
Safe travels out there, and as always;
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.