Hey there, Kid.
Hey there, Folks.
I hope you have all been well since we last met.
I hope there aren't many of you out there who worked for or relied on Spirit Airlines.
It is sad to see so many people suddenly without jobs, and it makes one wonder what the real reason behind the company's sudden and catastrophic collapse was.
Hmm.
I wish I had enough words, or the right ones to say to bring comfort to those people, you know?
As for me?
I've been doing okay, or about as okay as I can be, lol.
There is a big difference between being alone and being lonely, you know?
I don't mind being alone.
I have no problem with that at all.
Do I get lonely?
Yes.
I do.
But I know that it is a choice for the most part, you know?
In my case, I mean.
I am picky, as I think I should be.
Mayhap some of my old trauma causes me to be too wary, so I avoid dating.
Hmm.
I am as healed as I can be, you know?
But the emotional ghost of my past can randomly pop up from time to time...
Mayhap that's just part of being human?
You tell me.
I won't keep you all; I know what you are really here for, lol.
Let's take a trip in a little rocket ship.
What?
I can't say that?
Why?
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Who the hell is Little Einstein!?
(Hops into the control center of the Slappery-Slappish-Slappington 3000.1, wondering if I am always behind because I don't have any children to keep me up on the modern stuff? Hmm...)
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May 29th, 2022.
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Dear You.
Hey. Kid.
I hope you have been well.
I have been hanging in there.
It's crazy how alone you can feel
In a world filled with humans.
Crazier still, how we can give so much
And get so little.
I will always give you the world,
If I can.
I met (maybe) your big sister for the first time yesterday.
-XXXXX-
I love her beyond reason.
Strange how love works.
-Dad.
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Hmm.
- I still fight that loneliness at times, you know?
I don't miss anyone in particular, but I do miss the feeling of being in love.
That feeling...
That is rare.
It's amazing.
It's something that I wish on all the good folk who deserve it.
I hope YOU get to experience that feeling, Kid.
You all as well, Folks.
Life is short, and love is sweet.
Find someone who loves you deeply and truly, and life will be and get that much easier.
That goes for all of you as well, Folks.
- I will always be a giver.
That will never change, and no one will ever change that about me.
I was told by an ex once that I was "Too nice."
I didn't and still don't believe it.
I think we can be too kind to the wrong people/person, but to just in general, you know?
Be wary of who you gift that kindness to.
For you, Kid?
I would give you anything and everything that I could, if only you were here.
Hmm.
As for that " Big sister" of yours?
Well...
I didn't end up with her mom, so she isn't your sister because her mother isn't your mother.
She would have become your half-sister had her mother and I worked out.
Her mother is the one who ghosted me on those first few months after I had freed myself from my most recent ex-fiancé, lol.
She had been quite the anchor during and even a bit after I had freed myself from the toxic relationship that I was in, and I had thought that maybe we would have a second go at being in a relationship ourselves.
In hindsight, I am glad that it didn't go as I had hoped, as I had so much more healing to do before I could ever fathom a new relationship, let alone one that would be healthy.
Sheesh.
- I loved my Ex, not her daughter -the child that would have been your half-sister.
That would have taken time, but she was a remarkably well-behaved child, and being her stepfather would have most likely been a phenomenal experience.
Hmm, and hmm again.
Life AND love are strange.
What is meant for us will find us, Kid.
Both the good and the bad.
Take it all and do one thing with it, promise me.
LEARN.
Never stop learning from both the good and the bad.
That -in my opinion- is why so many of us humans fail so often, you know?
We don't let the bad things and the good things teach us equal lessons.
Listen and learn, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
Life will humble you if you don't do it yourself.
I love and appreciate you for your time and energy, Folks.
You keep me going.
Truly.
And you, Kid?
The thought of you being out there keeps me going just as much, believe me.
One day, you will read this.
I know it,
I can feel it.
I may not be there physically, but my soul and love will be here in these words, yeah?
Come back and read them as often as you want and need.
That goes doubly for YOU, Folks.
I will leave you all at that and cut out all the squishy shit, lmao.
See you all soon, yeah?
God willing.
Safe travels, Folks.
You as well, Kid.
And as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
- Bluu.