Just as my first nervous knock landed on the door, it clicked open, revealing Cassius.
Immediately he saw me, his face beamed with smiles as he pulled me inside and locked the door.
Before I knew what was happening, his lips were already on mine as his tongue surveyed my mouth. My back was against the door.
I was kissing him back this time. From our many kisses, I had learned a little bit about how to kiss.
Before, I thought kissing was disgusting, seeing how people did it.
Actually it isn't. It's so sweet and tremendous. It pulls you into a world you can't really describe.
A world of sweet pleasure and love… now I have to stop or stop him.Actually his hands are now roaming around my body. I love it but I have to stop him.
I slowly pulled my lips off his. He smiled, looking into my eyes.My face was all red from our heated kiss. He grazed his thumb on my swollen lips.
"You're beautiful Mary."
He always says this to me and I always feel loved and blessed each time he whispers those words to me.
But I'm not actually that beautiful! Is he blind or what?
"Your apartment is beautiful," I said when he took me to the cushion to sit.He too sat down, his hands placed on mine… his eyes not leaving my face.
"What?" I asked when his eyes couldn't blink away from my face. My heart was beating fast.
"I'm blessed to have you Mary," he kissed my knuckles, making me smile.
"What would you like to drink? Juice?" He asked.
"Yes, orange juice," I replied.
"You don't want to have lemonade?" He asked with a smirk on his face, waiting to see my reaction.
I hate lemonade!
"Hell no!" I squeezed my face.
"Chill," Cassius laughed and pinched my cheeks.
"Ouch," I frowned.
He left, still laughing. When he came back, he had two glasses of juice. One for himself and one for me.
"You live alone?" I asked. His apartment isn't really that big but it's beautiful and well furnished… It speaks of money.
"Yeah. No family, remember?" He asked and I nodded, feeling bad for him.
He already told me that his parents are both dead, so is the uncle that was taking care of him.His father's brother.
Actually we have the same fate of not having parents, but mine is different because my parents abandoned me.
While drinking from the glass of chilled juice, Cassius had his eyes on me.
"What?" I muttered, making him come closer to me.
"I can't take my eyes off you Mary," he whispered in a faint tone. It was faint but it gave me butterflies.
He slowly took the glass of juice from me and kept it on the table.
He gently caressed my cheek with his hand, giving me goosebumps.
"Cassius," I muttered as if I was asking for something, but I didn't know what it was.
He moved his lips closer to mine. I waited for him to place them on mine, but he didn't do it.
Was he teasing me? He just had his eyes on mine… sometimes on my lips.
Our breaths caressed each other's faces.
Before I could react and capture his lips, he moved his mouth to my ear and licked it.
I shuddered as butterflies danced inside my stomach. What was this feeling? I haven't felt this way before.From my ear, he moved down to my neck as he kissed and licked it.
I couldn't take it anymore as I opened my mouth and moaned out.
He came back to my face and captured my lips. I opened my mouth, allowing him to slide his tongue inside which explored my mouth. My tongue also explored his sweet mouth… tasting the juice.
He moved his lips up and down on mine. He sucked and nibbled on my lower lip. I noticed he likes sucking my lower lip.
I moaned again when he bit on it… it was painful and sweet.
"Cassius," I muttered when one of his hands trailed into my shirt and touched my bra… he was about to squeeze my breast when I immediately disengaged from the kiss.
"What?" He gently asked, wanting to capture my lips again but I looked away.
"We can't do this," I muttered.
"Why?" He slowly asked me.
"Because… because," I stuttered with heavy breaths.
"I'm a virgin" I replied and looked at him.
He had a surprised expression on his face.
"What?" I asked.
"I'm surprised Mary… I'm proud of you babe," he kissed my forehead.
"Are you cool with it?" I asked, making him nod.
"Yeah… I'm sorry for…"
"Why? Why do you intend for us to have sex?" I asked, interrupting him.
"Huh?"
"I want to know. Is it a must that a guy and a girl who are dating must have sex?" I asked, making him blink.Through his expression, he wasn't expecting such a question.
"No it isn't but…" He held my hand.
"What I want us to have is not just sex. Rather, I want to make love to you. Doing so will connect us both Mary… but I'm not forcing you babe. If you don't want it, I don't mind. All that matters is that I love you…"
Before he could complete his words, my lips were already on his.
I don't know why but it seems I'm making the biggest mistake of my life.
"Make love to me Cassius… I want you to be my first because I love you," I muttered on his face.
He gulped down. "Are you sure?"
"Shut up and make love to me, not sex," I whispered seductively.
He immediately captured my lips as we both engaged in a rough and heated kiss.
No one was giving each other a chance to breathe… he hasn't kissed me this way before, neither have I. It was a kiss of lust and want. I want him, likewise him.
He suddenly disengaged from the kiss and carried me up in a bridal style. I looked at him surprised.
AaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHow was he able to carry me?I'm so heavy of course.
"I'm about to fuck you in such a way that you won't be able to walk again."
Is this a threat? Actually it isn't, it's words filled with pleasure.
He carried me to his bed as we both engaged in another hot kiss.
The question is… did I make the right decision?
Will I regret this in the future?