Day 13 – "Jab feelings samajh aani shuru hoti hain… par naam nahi hota"
Subah ke 6:00 baj rahe the.
Aaj Sakshi usual time pe uth gayi, par aaj uska mind thoda alag direction mein jaa raha tha. Na stress zyada tha, na overthinking… par ek halka sa distraction tha.
Wo ready hote waqt mirror ke saamne khadi thi… par aaj wo khud ko judge nahi kar rahi thi.
Bas observe kar rahi thi.
"Main change ho rahi hoon…" usne dheere se socha.
Phir ek aur thought aaya—
"Aur shayad… meri life mein log bhi change ho rahe hain…"
Uske dimaag mein ek naam aaya—Aman.
Wo thoda sa awkwardly smile karne lagi.
"Yeh kya ho raha hai mujhe…"
School – Subtle Awareness
Aaj school pahunchte hi Sakshi ne notice kiya ki wo automatically Aman ko search kar rahi hai.
"Yeh pehle kabhi nahi hua…"
Usne khud pe hi thoda sa hansi ki.
Riya ne usse dekha aur turant samajh gayi.
"Hmmmm…" usne teasing tone mein kaha.
"Kya?" Sakshi ne normal act karne ki koshish ki.
"Kuch nahi… bas kisi ko dhoond rahi thi shayad?" Riya ne eyebrow raise ki.
"Shut up," Sakshi ne halka sa push diya.
Par uske face pe smile aa gayi thi.
Class – Focus vs Distraction
Aaj class mein Sakshi padhai pe focus kar rahi thi… par beech beech mein uska attention break ho raha tha.
Kabhi wo window ke bahar dekhte hue lost ho jaati…
kabhi bina reason smile kar deti…
"Focus kar Sakshi…" usne khud ko remind kiya.
Par aaj ka distraction stress wala nahi tha…
Soft tha.
Library – Different Energy
Aaj library session thoda different feel ho raha tha.
Sab usual tha—books, silence, notes…
Par Sakshi ka attention thoda divided tha.
Jab Aman usse kuch poochta, wo instantly respond karti.
Jab wo nahi bolta… toh Sakshi khud initiate karti.
"Yeh step samjha?"
"Yeh question try kiya tumne?"
Riya side se observe kar rahi thi… aur quietly smile kar rahi thi.
Small Moment – Unexpected Impact
Ek moment aaya jab Sakshi ek question solve kar rahi thi… par atak gayi.
Aman ne uski copy dekhi aur bola—
"Tumne yeh step skip kar diya."
"Kaunsa?" Sakshi ne poocha.
Aman ne calmly explain kiya.
Sakshi ne dobara try kiya… aur answer aa gaya.
"Thanks…" usne softly bola.
Aman ne sirf smile kiya,
"Anytime."
Yeh simple moment tha.
Par Sakshi ke liye yeh thoda special feel hua.
Riya's Teasing
Break ke time Riya ne Sakshi ko side mein le jaake bola—
"Sach sach bata… kya chal raha hai?"
"Kuch bhi nahi," Sakshi ne turant bola.
"Achha? Toh phir tu itni smile kyun kar rahi hai bina reason ke?"
Sakshi chup ho gayi.
"Pata nahi… bas achha lag raha hai," usne honestly bola.
Riya ne softly bola,
"Good. Bas overthink mat karna."
Yeh important tha.
Aman & Sakshi – Real Talk Lite
Break ke baad Sakshi aur Aman thodi der ke liye akele the.
Aman ne casually poocha,
"Tum ab zyada relaxed lagti ho."
Sakshi ne smile kiya,
"Shayad main khud ko thoda easy lene lagi hoon."
"Good hai… warna tum pehle kaafi pressure leti thi."
Sakshi ne sir hilaya,
"Haan… aur ab realise hota hai ki wo unnecessary tha."
Phir thoda silence.
Phir Sakshi ne poocha—
"Tum kabhi kisi cheez ko leke overthink karte ho?"
Aman ne thoda socha… phir bola—
"Kar leta hoon… par try karta hoon control karne ka."
"Kaise?" Sakshi genuinely curious thi.
"Distract nahi karta… accept karta hoon."
Yeh line seedha connect hui.
Ghar – Emotional Awareness
Aaj ghar aake Sakshi thodi thoughtful thi.
Na sad… na overly happy…
Bas reflective.
Usne padhai start ki… par beech beech mein thoughts aa rahe the—
"Yeh feeling kya hai…?"
"Normal hai na…?"
Par is baar usne khud ko stop nahi kiya.
Usne bas observe kiya.
Evening – No Panic Zone
Aaj usne realise kiya ki wo overthinking start kar sakti hai… par usne consciously decide kiya—
"Isko complicated nahi banaungi."
Wo terrace pe gayi… hawa li… music suna…
Aur khud ko calm rakha.
Diary Entry – New Emotion
Aaj diary entry thodi different thi.
> "Day 13:
Aaj mujhe kuch naya feel hua.
Stress nahi… pressure nahi… bas ek light sa distraction."
Phir usne likha:
> "Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha yeh kya hai…
par yeh negative nahi hai."
Aur last lines—
> "Shayad life sirf problems aur solutions nahi hoti…
kabhi kabhi feelings bhi hoti hain."
Last Thought
Light off karte waqt Sakshi ne aankhein band ki.
Aaj uska mind peaceful tha.
Par ek nayi cheez thi—
Ek unknown feeling… jo usse thoda confuse bhi kar rahi thi, aur thoda happy bhi.
To be continued…