Hey, Kid.
Hey, Folks.
I am sorry for the prolonged absence...
I hope, as always, that this finds you all well and in good spirits.
I've been quite heavy as of late, myself...
Why, you ask?
My Grandmother passed away the other day.
I have been feeling pretty mixed about it.
I am saddened by the pain that this is bringing to my family, yet at the same time, I can't feel that pain myself.
Not so strongly, at least.
I didn't know her very well.
I don't even know what caused her to pass.
I grew up mostly in the foster care system, you know?
And the rest of my earlier childhood was spent on my mother's end of the family.
I say that to say this: I had only met her but a handful of times, but all of those times were quite pleasant.
She was always kind to me.
She was warm and welcoming.
She was many things that I never got the chance to know and experience, nor will I ever.
That is a strange and unwelcome feeling.
Hmm.
This weekend brings with it her funeral and burial.
I have half the mind to give her a short parting speech.
The other half of that mind doesn't know if I should.
Hmm, again.
I wouldn't want to do her a dishonor, you know?
I hope that all of you go a long time before your next loss arises, because unfortunately, it will arise.
Death and life are distant lovers.
They must kiss and touch every so often in order to maintain the balance of all that nature has brought us.
Right?
To live forever would be chaos.
It would be beyond nature.
Enjoy the time you have with the people you have, folks.
This life of ours is so very short.
I won't keep you.
Go see what Young me was getting into, yeah?
I will be here when you return!
Enjoy!
( Slides into the pilot's seat of the Slappery-Slappish-Slappington 3000.1 and turns several strangely placed keys. It would be nice if this thing could take me anywhere else but the old memories linked to these entries...)
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May 25th, 2022.
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Yesterday, another school was shot up...
What is wrong with this world?
Why humanity?
15-20 kids dead.
At least 1 adult.
This is just part of our history by now...
Why?
How does this keep happening?
Why can't we just control guns?
This kid bought two automatic rifles on his 18th birthday...
How fucking crazy is that?
He couldn't buy cigarettes or booze,
But he can buy TWO Auto rifles!?
Universe, be with us...
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You know, I can't even recall WHICH shooting this was...
That is how bad it got around that time with the gun violence here in America.
It was a strange and prolonged rash of shootings and killings that only seemed to get worse with time...
Why can't we just get along as a species?
Why?
That haunts me pretty often.
I wish that it weren't this way, and that humanity cared enough to make the necessary changes that are needed to keep us all from killing each other off.
Mayhap we are meant to do just that?
Mayhap we are the worst thing that has ever happened to this planet, and nature is due for a massive reset?
Who am I to say?
Who am I at all in the grand scheme of it all?
Who are you?
Hopefully, someone among us can figure out an end to all of the madness around us that is not a violent solution.
Hmm, and hmm again.
Where did we go so wrong as a species?
I hope that the next entry has some better news, yeah?
2022 was rough...
Not as bad as 2020, but man.
I will leave you all at that, and I hope that the next entry finds you well and in good health.
I will let you all know how the funeral goes, yeah?
I am sure that it will be beautiful.
Well...as beautiful as a ceremony of death can be, I suppose.
I love and appreciate all of you, and I will see you sooner than later, yeah?
Safe travels, Kid.
You all as well, Folks.
See you soon.
You have my word.
Until then?
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.